all i want for christmas is you..

i can feel it coming.that bad omen..

blogging on christmas night makes me feel all alone again.

although i spent a day with him, i don't feel his presence.

although i got to see him the whole day, i felt that i only see him for a few hours.

where had he gone..

shakespears once said, life is nothing but a dream, a play on the stage.

We are all actors of our life, we can be the director of our life too, issit it?

This is a christmas which i hope never comes, or should i say that i hope it'll be over in the next minute. It was a christmas that i nv looked forward too...

some one asked if the feeling had fade, i really dunno how to answer that question. i had been asking myself tat same qn, but i still can't find the answer...

Things just seem to be changing,for the better or for the worse...

i can't find myself..

i'm leaving a question mark here.. can someone fill it in for me.

i'm tired of my style of living, it's getting draggy and torturous.

Merry X'mas to all my friends, and i wish you all happy and merry always.

2 wks of sch.

HectiC is all i can Say...
This is my Simple Plan..

LLD PBL presentation - to be completed by 16Nov.(tentative)
Research Method Project - ?? (haven't started at all yet)
Lower Limb Anatomy Practical Test - Wk 7 (must start memorising this weekend)
Physiology ICA test - Wk 8 ( just pay attention to param)
Communication Project - ?? (haven't started at all yet)

Alot of required reading to do, must find out more about orthopaedic and OT stuff to prepare for Clinicals.

Must draw up Clinical Learning Objective. Must start now. I don't know where to start. How?

Totally Lost now..

I just miss those moments.

i'm really going home this time

Time just flies... do they have wings?

Another week had passed,this sat,i'm really gng to leave on the jet plane, away frm this land of his and mine,back to the lonely island and back to my life of studying.

It's not that i hate going back to school,in fact i'm looking forward to monday when school starts,when i have to wait for another 15mins before hannah appears in front of me late again.

but i hate to leave this place(or our paradise),hate to leave him alone,hate to leave him so faraway that i can't hug him to cry again.

I just hope that my another week of stay had helped him in many ways,accompanying him to lectures and tutorial was interesting,at the same time,it exercises my brain too,so i'm not so slow and retarded when sch begins again.Accompanying him ard to search for material for his project was fun and not tiring at all.Seeing him progress in his project,and coming to a completion of his project gave myself a weird sense of achievement,which i can't describe that feeling either..it's just that weird feeling.

Although i can't stay any longer to see him thru his exams,i will still be supporting him from faraway and awaiting for him to return home to be by myside too.

My stay here had made me realised that he's a changed person now,not as optimistic as before,but overall he's become a better man.Just learnt to see this is a darker angle,maybe it's just me,coz i am not forced into such environment like he is now,so i'm not able to stand in his viewpoint at times.

This week we explored more places and even had chance to hop onto the train system of Brisbane.Thinking that it's not so backwards here,i just i was alittle wrong. All PA systems are manually operated,not pre-recorded okie,just like u are boarding a plane.Then u think the door should open on its own,but nope,u got to pull the lever of the door to get in if no one alight frm that cabin.how cool can that be... i din even noe till my fren told me abt that.

at the train station of chinatown.

I'm Going home tomorrow.bye.

The feeling is back.

Just as everything ''seems'' fine,and fitting in nicely again,it's almost time for us to part again.
We thought we will be able to take it lightly,but we just can't bear to part again.It's so painful..

Seeing him cry infront of me everynight pinches my heart,the pain pierces through me and blood oozed out from everywhere.That is the only thing to describe me now.

He said,'Can you don't go back?'

Although i replied practically that i Can't,but how i wish i can...

How i wish i can vanish into the thin air and surround you all the thing,watch of you and bless you.

It might have been a mistake in the first place for me to be here.Obviously,my presence had not make you become better,and worse of all,you seem to be more and more tensed up.

Since the day i'm here,i never see you smile,i only wipe your tears for you.Every trip out seems enjoyable and fun,but deep in my heart,i know jolly well that you are not enjoying yourself at all.I can't capture your smile in any photograph,not a moment in the time we spent together.Had i brought you more misery than joy?

Maybe only after i leave this place,then you can be happy and be yourself again.Maybe i had tried too hard to change who you are,but i really hate this you...

i don't know what i can do.i just hope you can talk to me and share with me your problems.I'll be leaving soon,i hope we can seize this opportunity tat we are together.

"You gotta learn to laugh, it's the way to true love."

story bridge in Brisbane

Look at how magnificient this bridge is..it just blows me off...

Another look of the Story bridge.Somehow it just reminds me of a small london bridge.haha

Streets Beach,South Bank

This is where i wanna go later.i hope i can make it there.. hahah

Signing off.. good night

My trip to Indooroopilly

Currency Conversion:

AUS$1.00 = S$1.39

today i travelled to indooroopilly shopping centre on my own.This is the first time since i came over,taking a bus(public transport) on my own without him by myside and gng to somewhere i nv been and seen before.

But the whole journey to and back was so exciting.

the journey started out frm Uni of Queensland,and end at the doorstep of Indooroopilly shopping centre.

The night before i checked online the bus route to take.So today,i acc him to the uni,and while he was busy in the lab,i made my trip to indooroopilly SC and explored tat place all by myself.

ok, so at ard 1.30pm,i hopped onto bus 428 at Uni of Queensland bus stop A,and i doubled confirm with the bus driver tat that is the bus which i'm suppose to get on,(just incase the info in the net is not accurate).ok, so i sat by myself,listening to my mp3 on the way there,and keeping a lookout of the road names, to assure myself again that i'm on the right track.okie,cool.saw many different patterns of houses on my way to indooroopilly.

'coz the stop tat i'm suppose to get off at is a interchange,so it was easy for me, i just got to follow everyone and alight at that stop.

okie when i first step into the SC,i remember the shop tat i first saw(banks,and food court)so that i'll be able to get back to the same spot to get the bus back to Uni of Queensland.

So systematically i explored indooroopillySC,there were abt 4 levels and many boutique there.So i bought sweets,erm,a blouse which is below AUS$20,i mean tat whole shop sells everything below AUS$20.Then i shopped ard,and soon it was abt 5pm le,shops are abt to close,(tat's the bad thing abt touring aussie,shop close early).Anyway so i trace back my track and went back to the bus interchange,got onto 428 which goes back to Uni of Queensland to meet him.

The trip back was only abt 20mins,knowing tat he'll still be busy at the lab,i explored the uni on my own,and luckily for my streetwise,i found my way to the lab,looking thru the window,i saw him working conscienously on his project,so i dint wanna disturb him or make him stop his work halfway just to acc me.So i went to the nearby lake for a walk by myself.Looking at the cranes and birds at the lake,the carefree-ness of these little creature,i could feel what the lonely soul of him is gng thru.but i can only be here temporarily to unload his unhappiness.Soon we will be parted again,but i hope this time it'll be better for the both of us.I can't imagine how it'll be like,and i dont dare to imagine too.i'll let nature take its course and see how things are gng to be after tat.For now i just wanna help him as much as i can,to help him feel better,and hopefully he knows tat i'll always be there for him, no matter now or later, in aus or back in Singapore.

oh yar, because i knw he's facing alot of problems lately,and i also dunno when i became so superstitious,i bought him a tailsmen(frm the ancient egypt) for obstacles of life,and hopefully tat will guide him, and protect him thru.I just hope for the better and i wish him good luck.

Anyway it is late night in CITY today,so we went to city for dinner and just to relax himself.now back in his room,working very hard on his project again,and because i knw nuts abt electricity,i can only sit beside him and look at what he's doing.i dunno if tat is considered helping anot.haha.

I had Donut King today

Today i had Donut King for Lunch, it's kinda like dunkin' donut in malaysia, but this one come in many shapes and sizes,we also went to supermart to get stuff to cook for tuesday dinner.Although we only went out for a short while,but i guess it's relaxing ba.Anyway then we found this place where we can take see the brisbane river.so we took a few photos there on our way hm.haha.

signing out.buaiz

I'm in Brisbane now.

I had flown in a plane for 6.5hrs frm singapore all the way to brisbane to meet him.Although the journey here was tough,but when i finally met him later in the morning everything seem worthwhile.
On the plane, i was sitting between 2 ang mohs, one can't slp and the other slping like a pig(snoring somemore). So like u have expected, i can't slp too.Luckily, this small little screen infront of me accompanied me thru my journey.I ate the most disgusting supper(Baked salmon with mashed potatoes) and proceed to watch the latest in house movie,the longest Yard.I would say the movie was good.Then after that show, i watch Mr and Mrs Jones by Bratt pitt and Angelina Jones.Erm, i guess these are the most expensive movie i'll be catching this yr ba.Anyway after tat i wanted to watch CSI which Qantas preview too, but i guess i'll surely fall aslp after tat, so i watched something comedy called the The Britan.I was suppose to laugh but the joke was too cold and too lame that i can't laugh man. Anyway then i still couldn't slp coz the plane is too dry, and i feel that my nose is gng to drop off soon, so i requested for many cups of ice water.And also because the guy beside me keep gng up and down the seat, i knw i have many opportunity to go to the toilet.haha..
Soon, after playing a few games on nintendo, i was abt to fall aslp, then they say it's breakfast time.Haha.. The Breakfast was super lousy.They only provided a crossiant with Raisins (cold and chewy), and a cup of tea lo. then shortly we embarked at Brisbane International Airport and my senior was there to recep me, so i wasn't a lost sheep.Luckily, she's free in that morning,or i'll have to flag a cab back to his place.
Anyway, we didn't really plan where to go,so most of the time we went shopping,in city and at a suburb shopping center Toowong.And today we went to Sch sport to play badminton with 2 other frens.Had alot of fun,but after tat he felt he nv study much today,so now we are in his room studying now.while i'm here blogging and acc him.
Leaving you with some of the photos tat we took yesterday at brisbane river and At Queen St Mall.

where am i nw?

i think every1 is as eager as me to knw whether i pass my driving test right,okie, i flunt it.it was horrible,i tot i was okie actually.but anyway,it doesn't really matter to me whether i pass at which attempt.Anyway for ur info,it's only my first attempt.

As many should know by nw,i'm flying off in another 5 days time.This time,it's a tour and holiday break for me.An expensive one,but anyway i'll be on my own.I mean really on my own,without a tour group,without my friends with me,until i touch down in aust.Till now, i still have no regrets of making the decision of going over.Everytime when i need him by his side,he's always there for me,knowing him well enough(although only he can tell me whether i knw him well),this time round,it should be by turn to be by his side when he needs me. Since we were together, he never requested me to do anything for him, he nv expects me to sacrify anything for him.So i feel that this time, i should really do something for him.

From this experience of his, i really see that to be independent is really very difficult,and no one can be an individual in this world,that's why i always think friendster had made itself significant.We need each other's support and encouragement to survive in this cruel reality.Without him by my side this 2 years, i really can't image what i'll be like now.Somehow, i always say i won't change because of him,but i believe many of you who read this will know that i'm a changed person now.The tom boyish in me is almost gone, and the most drastic change is I'm not as strong as i used to be.Telling others that i can be independent without him ard is a lie, without him,i realised how much he had helped me this 2 yrs.Make me realise how dependent i'm on him.

Looking forward to seeing him next thursday morning.I'm trying to imagine our first reaction,will it be a hug?or tears all over our cheeks?or nothing at all?i'm really not sure.i don't dare to ask him, i don't dare to disturb him, i don't even dare to talk to him this few days,coz everytime we talk, he cries to me.Hearing him crying out his heart,pinches my heart too..It is a suffering to him, as well as to me.Although i try my best to comfort him.i always fail.I guess that's why his turning to his dad now.I'm such a useless girlfriend,can't offer him the love and care that he need from me.i'm writing all this up here,i guess coz i got no one to turn to..

Luckily i still have a buddy with me who is always ready to hear me out when i need.Thanks for asking me out on wednesday,just to relax ourselves and to catch up with each other again.Next week u'll be doing your SISPEC recourse,so i wish you all the best.I'll be away for a while, don't miss me too much.And hopefully u can hop over to OCS k!

I'm a lost sheep nw,waiting for god's guidance.I need to see that light again.Absence makes the heart fonder, then maybe that fonder heart will subside after a peak.
Today he shared this with me,given to him by his little cousin.It says ''Forever Love'',will it really be forever love? I don't know.I'm so lost,i hate this feeling... god!help Me....

Results oh results.

wEeh.. i tot i can't fall slp last night. but i was really damn tired frm the walking ard town, so i fall aslp almost immediately.As usual, my dear always feel lousy after his paper, so i had to comfort him.i talked him out, hoping there he will feel better after that.but even till this morning he still tells me he got that lousy feeling abt himself. anyway i can see that uni life i really stressful, when u are all alone overseas, and your teammates are not co-operative, and yet you are still having alot of problem with the project. haiz, i think that's the worst senario anyone can come to right?
Wadever it is i hope he'll be ok soon..and hope he can hang in there, coz in just 1 more week, i'll be there to acc him le.Although it is temporary, but i still hope it will help him.
This morning, i can finally review my results frm the e-service. Okie, and this is how it goes.
Frm the very end of the exams, i keep telling myself as long as there is no Sub, it doesn't matter what shitty grades i get. As long as there is no subs. I pray to god everyday hoping that i'll be happy on the day i receive my grades.
Okie, then just before i woke up, i don't know what kind of brainwave was that, but i had a dream.Haha. and i dream tat i'm the only one in the class to receive a Distinction!! wow. so proud. then i woke up, haha it was only in my dream. Maybe the msg frm god was, hey dream on girl.. u think u so good.
Okie, so i turn on the comp eagerly to knw my results.then i had this



yup, so tat's exactly the same thing that i see. Okie problem is i should be happy right.coz my prayer is answered, and i should thank god.but somehow, i'm abit greedy here.
i'm starting to question myself, did i really work hard enough? erm, do i deserve better great than this? erm, should i have done this and done tat.. haiz.
okok i guess human being human, always expect more that what is given.I mean the more more the merrier right.But is that right? i also don't knw.
But i kinda had come to a conclusion, i should be happy, and satisfied with what i've got, coz this is the result of my hard work.
I must always bear this in mind, i'm not smart, i'm purely hardworking.
So don't blame ourselves for not having a high voltage brain power, but we have a powerful determination, and i guess that is more important. The determination to do well, will definitely rule out those who are smart by nature, but lazy and lack of determination.
Having said enough, i shall stop here.
I'm flying off to Brisbane to be with my dear in 1 wks time.So dear, hang on k.

Today is your birthday, i guess it's lonely and boring ba.

this is specially arranged for you.Hope you'll like it. Sorry i can't be there with you today to spend your birthday with you, neither am i home to 'acc' you while you are working hard alone over there.But all the hard work will be paid off, that's what we always believe right.Too suffer nw, means we can enjoy later.I'll be joining you soon, in just abt a weeks time, hope you can endure abit more.I'm as excited as you are abt my trip over to brisbane. But for now, i still have something else to worry abt... so yups, all the best for your tml paper okie. Last one to go. Good Luck. I miss you everyday.

busy busy september??

hi all,

Yeah finally exams over,but result will only be released on the 15th Sept,and of coz, hope everything goes smooth,as long as I don't have to take sub-paper,i'll be happy le.

Let's see what i'm doing since holiday started..

On the 29th Aug, Went to sentosa for Attacks of The Otties,a get together with the yr 1 and yr 2.Had lotsa fun, actually it's like amazing race,but then erm, some cock up here and there,but overall great job to the yr 2 coz they are the one who made this outing possible..And the biggest joke of the day was, no one expected me to be the last to arrive,yet i'm the last!! haha..

On the 30th to 1Sept, I spent my day at Pasir Ris chalet with my class.. Thanks to elaine who booked that big bungalow,which i tot was quite scary on the first nite,coz i had to spent my night in that big room with eunice only.But great mahjong session too.Haven't touch the tiles since erm, dont know when.. but that 2 days i think i touch enough tiles le. Oh, preparing for the bbq, and the shopping trip with abi and wanying, plotting wanying all the way to make her decided on something was kinda tiring too..keke.. But overall the bbq was great,and thanks joseph for that special performance(magic aka con show),i think the class had lotsa fun...


Oh, and not forgetting that salivating cheesecake by josephine and elaine.Keke..

After that chalet, you are pratically too exhausted to do anything, everybodies drag their dead body home and slept thru the day i guess..

On 2nd Sept, I proceed for my first driving revision lesson.It was erm, how should i put it? horrible? okie lor? or what.. anyway i guess the 3 conductors are really confusing me up now,and i guess the rest of my revision lesson,i'll just be driving my own style ba.If i gng to fail the test also nvm,doesn't really matter for me,but of coz everyone hope to pass the first time right.So i'll just try my best keke. Nothing interesting in driving lesson,coz the instructor sucks, eat my money, waste my time, half way thru ask me to pull over for him to go toilet, still blame say i too jerky.What's his bloody problem.Nvm, if i pass first time, i'll complain him until siao.haha..

On weekend, supposed to be spent at home, but somehow i think i went out with my parents to town, walk ard, eat lunch in maxwell market,long time nv go there liao. But we had all the delicacy there. so i think i'm growing fat...

Then another week started again, I volunteered to help abi out at the MCYC student care centre. Haha , believe it out or, a pri 4 kid can tell me, 'you are very Lame!'So stunned by his words, i said,''Lame means cannot walk''.. hahha.. can't believe it.Frm that visit, it reminds me of my JC days, when my class volunteered to take care of a bunch of kids for a day, and even invited them to SA and had games with them.Fun, yet tiring, coz some kids just don't co-operate and gives you attitude problem.Same thing at the centre,they are just pri sch kids, and yet they use vulgur language free flowingly (if there is such term).. u know what i mean..But i had lotsa fun teaching this kid chinese spelling.Then i ask him when is his spelling test, he said he don't know,so i say isn't it silly to study so early, coz a few days later,you'll forget all the words again le,I mean it's true right, i always study spelling just before i go for it, so that it's all fresh in my head. haha..Then he told me not to curse him.keke.. i tot i'm just being frank.Anyway, wadever...

tuesday i went for driving lesson again, so that i can go help the kids to fly kite at West Coast Park today. tuesday lesson equally sian, so i don't wanna talk abt it le.. Oh yar, i went swimming under that bloody hot sun on monday afternoon, and leave me with that ugly tanline.yucks!! but hack lar,who cares. So after lesson, i wanted to wait for my mom to finish work, but it's too much a chore, so i roam ard west mall and IMM. in the end i got myself some clothes and some presents too.Ok then i was thinking what should i get for my bf,who will be spending his birthday alone,and somemore the next day got exam.Hope miserable right,haiz but no choice lar.So i walked and walked but din't see anything in mind.So i went home not getting anything for him.

So wednesday, nothing to do, decided to start running, and since then i have been running everyday.Running ard the estate can be quite fun too, go ard seeing new houses that had been rebuilt,and run ard the park with kids kicking soccer on the field.remind me of my childhood days.

Today i had a great time at West Coast Park with Abi, and all the kids.I mean, although the kites just can't fly no matter how hard we tried,or no.. i should say the children tried. and then in the end they all like quite sian diao, then play ball game, lastly go playground.But i guess the best part for them is the food.. Mchicken burger.haha.

Had alot of thoughts this week,maybe because he is feeling very depressed and miserable over there too.I don't know what else i can do for him already,other than just sitting down here and listen to him.I tot i'm understanding enough of his situation,i tot i gave him enough opinions to consider, but things doesn't seem to be getting better.But i only seem to lose him more and more each day.I guess they are right, study overseas makes u see alot of things, and change u into another person too..But they nv say whether it's better or for the worst. haha.. but gng overseas in the end make a person lose his confidence and interest in other things in life, is that a good thing or a bad thing.i also don't know what to say le.

Anyway i had to be much stronger than him now,so that only i have to worry for him and not having him to worry for me.As he thinks that i'm enjoying my hols here, actually i'm trying very hard to understand his stats too, so that somehow i can help him alittle.but that bloody stats is really difficult.so different frm what i have in my math notes.but i'm sourcing out.So anyone who have knowledge of stats for engineering can share with me.I hope he gets better each day, but everyday our conversation get repeated again and again, our topics nv leave that misery,tell me how am i suppose to help him, i'm getting miserable too.haha(fake laugh)

Anyway in another 2 more weeks i'll be out of town, i guess you all can deduce where i'll be.Yar, i'm flying over to meet him, to shower my love on him, and of coz hopefully to make him more at ease over there..After so long, he still can't settle down, then there is really something wrong.so my this visit is to go find out more why he's not ok.and try to cure him.I pray that he can do well for his papers and of coz after tat all his project will be smooth sailing le. No more hiccups, no more hurdles equals no more worries.

take care pple.i'll be back on the 8th Oct.Till then, see you.

Two more weeks to a well deserved break

time really past fast, it's coming to an end of a semestral, looking aback at the first time i met my classmates..haha.what a joke.anyway, i'll be having my exams in the coming 2 weeks, and after that i'll be having my semestral break for 1.5months.Wohaha...

Kenrick had left singapore for a month le,although we try to talk to each other everyday,but i still miss him alot.The feeling of being apart is torturous,when i thought i can go through it, when i thought i'll be strong, but it's really difficult. Time does pass fast looking back at it now,but when i was in that shit, time was slower than snail's crawling i would say.

Anyway now i'm putting all my mind into my exams, of coz i hope to do well, and i'm telling myself that i would.haha. i will try not to be distracted, but some of you will knw it's impossible coz i'll still think of him.haha..

Whatever it is, nothing special or big is happening in my life,just plainly preparing for exams... okok.. Take care friends

137 Days to go....

yes, i'm alone in Singapore now, He has gone to australia, If you wanna ask if i miss him, of course i do. If you wanna ask if i cried when he left, of couse i did. He was like my right hand, having him to leave me at this time, was really a challenge for both of us. We had been together for 2 years, i guess it's time god wants us to take a step back, and reflect on all our happy memories, so that we cherish each other presence. I still miss him, although it have been 4 days. Will I continue to miss him, Yes i will.Till the day i see him again. We still communicate thru msn, skype and webcam, but i guess the feeling is just different. All the help that he used to offer, all the things that we used to do together, i suddenly learnt to appreciate them, and really to think back, he had left me with many beautiful memories to reflect on. I think god for giving me this gift, he was my sunshine, providing me light and warmth. Ever since he left, the days had been long and gloomy. My life is dull and flat, i just miss him more and more as each day goes by. I cry whenever i think of him. I tot i am a strong girl, but somehow, i felt weak within me, i feel lost and empty. Maybe i still need time to adjust my life. But let me say this, if he hasn't been ard for the past 2 years,i really don't know if i can survive through my As, and do what i like today. I'll wait patiently for his return, i'll promise him to study hard, and i'll be his support. I'll make sure that he don't have to worry about me anymore. i'll be a stronger girl after this.

Now back to my studies, there seem to be continuous assignment datelines to meet, one after another, followed by test and then comes examination. Now that he's not ard me, i really need to depend alot on myself to study, i can't have him by my side when i study and prepare for exams, but he says he'll always be there when i need him. Anyway, i'm really trying to cope, and it's really very stressful. I hope i can do well, and not let anyone down(including myself).

To all my friends, whom i have been neglecting badly, I'm so sorry, but i haven't forget anyone of u.Once, i pass this exam, i'll look for all of you, and i'll spend my time with you all.I love all of you.

1 week of term break has passed...

1 week has past me so unknowingly.. only 1 more week to go.

always busy with project and preparing for the ICA, but doubt my ICA will be good this time round. as hard as i try to study, some things of physiology just don't go into my head. nvm, i'll try harder..

1 more month, and my dear will leave me for australia. of coz i wish him all the best in his studies over there, but i hope that he'll remember to think of me too.. but sometimes, i really wonder if i can think of him too.. that's only if i have the time i guess..

As i said, pple should be changing their views abt me gng to pursue my dreams in poly. but pple are still asking me why did i wanna go poly instead of University. haiz. i really don't know what else to say...

I have been thinking alot these days, thinking about my future, thinking about my past. Thinking of all the friends that i have not been hanging out with. Time doesn't seem to be on my side i guess.. so unknowingly, all my poly friends are in Yr 3 already.. WOW... so fast.. so furious,

i was shocked to remember that they are already graduating, and i have just started.. but i believe this is a different path, god always have his plan for all of us. I was looking thru my msn, and i say my buddy's nick, his say his is damn stress.. preparing for exams too.. but hey i just wanna say chill out man, don't be so stress out.. the more you stress, the worse you will perform okie. i mean certain stress is good, but not much!!

I was stress, but i have learn to manage it. I hope all of you will too.. writing blog really helps. heheh..

okie, i got to go now.
Take care my fRiends.

i've finally return frm mars

okie, seems to be missing in action nowadays. although sch have finally settled, and classmates are almost fixed, i guess still trying to adapt myself into this presentation and project based learning curiculum. Pple who passed that poly stage, always tell me that poly life is super easy, i guess it's not true at all ba. Or maybe i need time to adapt. Anyway, i'm now picking up driving, and hope to get my licence by early next year. Not rushing, just don't wanna waste too much time and money on this.
Next week will be the ICA week, got 2 papers only.so it's quite okie, but somehow, expectation on myself is still quite high. guess it's all the pressure that I'm receiving from my parents ba.I mean, they din particularly forbid me from pursuing my dream, but they expect me to do well in it. okie, i'll of course do my best, but what if thing does not turn out well? erm, anyway, no pain no gain, shall see how it goes ba.
On the way of our course, i lost 2 classmates. One is a close friend of mine,Yan'an and the other a nice classmate, Madaline.I guess because of family pressure and the social stigma and stares that they get, they decide to go with the norm, and continue their journey to the University.

Sometimes, i just don't understand, why pple thinks that way.

We are not here because we can't make it to the University.If fact, all of us are offered a course in University, and most importantly, OT AND PT ARE FOR A LEVEL STUDENTS ONLY. was that a clear answer to everyone out there.. so don't think that we are doing this because we can't get to anywhere.. to us, it maybe god's calling, to others it maybe a dream of making the world a better place by helping others..

Shakespears think that life is all about acting, life is a show, and our life is about playing different Role,
huihui thinks that life is just like driving on a road, especially in unfarmiliar places.
We have our MAp and Roadsigns = our parents, or sometime God.
We have our Road = the path that which we choose to take.
We do have regrets too = the U turn that we are looking for.
However, this U turns are not taken for granted,
on the way of looking for a U turn, we learn new things too..
Why do we go to unfamiliar places?
Maybe cos we have no choice, = family pressure really do make us give up our dreams and desire
maybe cos we make a wrong turn at the front,= we have not found the right path yet. not every path or road suits everyone, some pple who loses their guide, what we need next is someone to support and guide us.Sometime Pressure from the society play a major role too!!
What so difference in Studying Medicine and OT or nursing? We are still health care worker..
Why us studying in Medicine so much more high class then OT or worse, nursing.It's just that social stigma that somehow can't be eliminated from us.
Somehow i wish that one day i can delete all the social stigma, but i can just wish..

Although i don't get tat stares and questions from my family members as they do understand what i wan and how i wanna pursue it. Maybe sometime we need to talk to our "Maps", we need to understand and read them.It definitely helps in reducing tension in the family.

I hope my entry here had enlighten some1, and i hope everyone will somehow reflect on how much you understand ur map and roadsigns.

God Bless All who loves him, and those who have yet to discover him.

back to school!

2nd week of school have end-ed.. things are starting to fit in nicely...

less surprises in sch, more interesting things are coming up.

i think i really like my class nw, and thank god that sarah is still with

us.

Yes, we almost lost her! she was almost transfered to OT0501. anyway,

it's over now.

I had a twin sister in class, twin sister coz the classmates thinks

tat we look alike.

Long hair, wear specs, have the same face..

blah blah blah.

anatomy class is super fun n thrilling, we get to see and touch the

cadaver. (of course not with my bare hands).

Anyway, physiology is 'fun' too.I now spend most

of my time with anatomy and physiology.

my life is not just abt studying of coz,

i also spent some time teaching a pri 5 gal, which

can be quite blood vomiting at times.

She is a active gal, who can't sit still. and always

forgets what i had taught her.and she keep asking me

abt coconut tree.. ahahhh

ok. ok. i shall stop here.. back to my study of physiology,

becoz monday is labour day, we have to do self directed studies.

sigh!

It's a small world aftEr all...

okie, i was MIA for a very long time.. so long dat i dun even remember when i have login here.

I wasn't busy like you though, but i wasn't tat free too..
you can say tat i was lazing ard, but i'll not longer be lazing ard.
I'll be back to school really really soon... 1 more day! back to
school on monday.. If you asked if i'm prepared for it, erm..
i would say kinda, ready to get into action.. all refreshed and ready
to go.

Okie, let me tell ya the first day of being a Occupational Therapist..

Today is Orientation Day, i couldn't wake up, but i manage to get to
sch in time.When i was there, i met 2 familar faces, frm my pri sch. 1
is a used to be close fren in pri sch, but lost touch after leaving sch. The
Other was just a familar face which i often bump into whether in pri sch
or ard the area.(since she stay ard my house) okie, then there was a SA
gal there too.. although i din talk to her b4 in SA, but i talk to her today la.
okie this 3 person are in my class.. yeah!!! this means that i do have some frens
in the same course as me. hahah.
Okie they are none other than Sarah Li.. Tis name is surely familar to some of u
who are reading this. hehe. then there is Luyi frm Pei hwa, and Susan frm SAJC.
Of cos there is more.. but will mention the, later in my later entries.

other than meeting my new classmates, i met my senior class too.. they are fun,
and easy going.I definitly know more abt OT today. We played 'Tresure Hunt' in
order to know our school better.. and had lotsa talk but the course managers and
some councellors.. okie..

today meeting (orientation) had really allowed me to know more pple in class, and
to familarise myself in the new environment that i'll be in the next 3 yrs..

okie, i'm gng to stop here.. frm today onwards. I'm a passionate Occupational Therapist..
and i'll do my best to serve and to help others who needs help.
God Bless All.

at The trAin sTAtIon in BangKok! 

wow.. freedom smells sometimes

suPer BorEd at HomE

haSn't bEen feelIng very alRight since i stopped working last tuesday, have a fever and flu on wednesday, so i can't go out with my colleauges for dinner, den i stayed in bed the whole day..
got a little better, den dunno wad to do for the rest of the week .. felt tat it's long and boring..
went to the addidas sale, bump into so many pple, got ah dog, elna, quanju and the bballers.. ahhah.. ask me join them again after i'm out of the hall.. AM i SIAO.. hahah

I wan to qoute frm kevin,'' BLUE IS MY MIDDLE NAME''.. hahhaha..k, wadever it is, hope my posting come out soon, coz i haven't decided which course to choose in UNI, every course tat i wanna get in seems out of reach.. sucks la.. so i tot ABB was satifying, but it a very very very average score, and i really dunno where i can go with this result, without bio in JC, damn it, i kinda regreted not appealing for it den, now i have slim chance in life science, and biological science, and totally no hope for pharmacy la. haix... forget it.. i'll try chem engi, if not i'll just go eat shit and die. omg, i sound so pessimistic.. this is just not the usual crazy ah hui... hahah.. got possessed!!...

logging out here.. see ya all another time!tc , tata

tHank gOd for AnswEring my PrayER

i belIeve it hasn't been an easy week for any1 of us. yeS, dead worried abt our results, den dead sad abt our results, or dead happy with your results. which one are you?

it was a damn freaking moment of my life, my teacher, Mr Peh was suppose to tell me whether i passed my GP (a damn important subject dat i can't afford to fail) in the morning before collecting my result.hahah.. but guess wad, he din sMS me at all.. tat freak me out, or any1 who were in my shoe, my heart will thumping at my throat..

my CT, micheal taN came back personally to hand our result slip onto our hands, he din not comment anything, and i dunno if he was suppose to.. but he said jokingly, be prepared to rush to the GO later okie.. to retake A level.. hhahah
damn him la. have faIth in us man, his Class somemore lehz..

3 or more distinction holders' name were called out, and i'm not one of them, sucks.. my heart started to jump even faster, wad if i fail my As.. damn it man, i was cursing there.. hoping tat my name will be called out next. hahah.. anyway when i got the results in my hand, i jumped up. not sad, but happy.and most importantly, i'm satified, effort was not drained down after all...

Most importantly, i had proven to everyone who thinks i can't make it.. Who say i can date when i'm schooling.. who say having a bf when u are 17 or 18 is a bad influence..

dear juniors out there.. i'm not saying tat having a bf is right, but having a bf/gf who supports you, encourages you, and sometimes pushes you is good.. peer pressure is an important factor in my academic success... mainly coming frm Joanne Lee, a classmate of mine, and i guess an imposter of LIm hUI huI,which is me. take same sub as me in secondary sch and junior college.. always trying to win me in all the subjects and all major exams.. den later wan to go same college as me whn we completed our O level, now wan follow me to any uni course i'm taking ba.. she has been pestering me asking me where i wanna go.. so irritated by her.. can't she just stop there.. there's a limit you know.. anyway will be damn busy this week trying to register for my Occ therapy course in NYp.. haven't tot of a uni course as my backup.. and gng to send all my application for scholarship asap.. I hope god will guide me thru once more!! tHanks God!!!

aLso wanna thank my family and friends for beening so supportive during my 2 years in JC. and also my dear kenrick for supporting me, and encouraging me all the time, and push me beyond my limits at times of studies.. and also to joanne, thanks ah.. stop following me can...

lastly, to LIM POW HOW,if u have not asked me back for so many counsultation with ya, i bet i'll make it for my GP.. so thanks alot.. haven't got a chance to see ya in sch tat day, but i'll go back to visit. i promise!!

I love SAJC, I'm a SaInt.
Once a Saint, Always a Saint!!
''Up and On''

1 and 1/2 days more to go. . .

This is a song i wanna sing to all of ya.

First

I was afraid

I was petrified

Kept thinking I could never live

without a cert in my life

But I spent so many nights

thinking how you did me wrong

I grew strong

I learned how to carry on

and so you're back

from Cambridge (England)

I just walked in to find you here

with that blank look on the table the result slip)

I should have changed my stupid answer

I should have made you leave the answerkeys

If I had known for just one second

you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door

just turn around now

'cause you're not welcome anymore

weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with grade Fs

you think I'd crumble

you think I'd lay down and die

Oh no, not I

I will survive

as long as i know how to study

I know I will stay alive

I've got all my life to study

I've got all my love to mug

and I'll survive

I will survive

It took all the strength I had

not to fall apart

kept trying hard to mend

the pieces of my broken heart

and I spent oh so many nights

just feeling sorry for myself

I used to cry

Now I hold my head up high

and you see me

somebody new

I'm not that chained up little person

still in love with you

and so you felt like dropping in

and just expect me to be free

now I'm saving all my time

for something waiting for me

(Chorus)

hey friends, long time no blog le.. kinda missing in action too.. i'm anxious, i'm worried, i'm afraid, i'm petrified, i'm lost, i'm feeling all alone, i'm horrified, i'm terrified... wadever u can think of.. i hate this feeling, i hate to be kept in the dark. See ya all on JUDGEMENT DAY (4th March 2005).. let's pray: We'll walk in and out of school gracefully! aH man!

hectIc siA

mOOd todAy: SIanS
siAn siAn siAn, today i walked frm MRT to NCS alone agaIn, AngeLine is on MC again.wonder why is she so weak, still dare say she's frm ODAC.. who believe man.. anyway, hope she's feeling beTtER todAY le.. Elna is having a flu too... only da bAO, which is me, is still pink in heaLth.. hahaha.. the 2 of tHem suCks la.. and tat stupid eLna, act strong sia, flu already still dun cure it early, dun wan take panadol, later mux take MC den you know ah.. mux learn frm me, how to take caRe of myseLf.
WhEn angEline is not ard, i tRied to cover her duty as a fiLing ofFicer, keeping stOcks of the files in the command centre,haha.. but actually got nothing much to cover also la.. and eLna also help angeline to cover her daty entry, see one person go on MC, 2 person muz cover her work, as if she very important like tat.. but actually angelIne super do nuthing one la..
and for those who are complaining tat it's very colD in the cOmmand cEntre, dun worRy, mighty mouse was here today, and had change the air con system, so it's much better now.. thanks ah Mr Mighty Mouse.. hehehe..
super do nuthing in the office early in the morning today, first thing, ah dog tried to ploT me, but unsucessful.. hahah coz i too smart le.. den we play Valentiner in the office, word descrambler too.. siao rite.. keep ploting one another, until we alreadi know who's plotting le.. hahaha.. everyone learnt how to be very alert during there stay in LTA, hahah.. finally when we claimed tat we din plot ah dog's hp in the afternoon today, he din believe us la.. so Wah lioW lor... how can he.. guess what.. is tat idiotic kevIn la.. hahha..

we gOt the latest plOt plAn, go help pplE see msg to stranger on Friendster, and talk to friend's friends on MSN, imposing as our own friend. hahaha..

ohoh.. at lunch, we say the IT ppl coming for lunch, den they sat behind us.. den ELna stupidly say, oh IT pple must find computer den can sit.. lame la.. but nv, den everyone go buy food, left Lana there.. hahha.. best part, when PualIne tOng came ah, there isn't any seat reserved for her.. hahaha, oh( for ur own info pualIne gOes to the toiLet almost every 1/2 hr..) den she went to the finance there, also no seat for her.. den she go find a ang mOh table and sat beside an ang moh( not handsome one, younger den her though).. wow.. she sucks la.. think she very pretty,very young mehz..

worSt of all, i mistook her as khIa Yee.. wad an insult to k.Y. paiseh ah.. hahaha.. sorry..
tml i must challenge EUgene again, tat senseless bastard.. who's brain is like a dinosaur repellant.. hahaha.. qoute frm Eugene.

fUnfaIr at SAJC was great, though din buy much, but enjoy my time there.. saw alot of long time no see frIends.. bdaY paRty @ kaNg plAce was great too.. food was nice n super filling.. hahaha.. though we din have time to lay our fingers on the mahjong tiles, but had a good time talking cock..

super scare, my results coming out most prob next fri le.. wad if i dun do well, wad if i pass, but can't get into the course that i'm interested in.. wad if i wann go overseas, is it a good option.. i need some advice.. i need some opnion. lastly i need someone to help me, and pray for me man. thanks.. i'm not gng to think abt it anymore, coz it's really freaking me out.. wad's the most dreadful thing, i still need to return to work after receiving my results, i got to bear my feelings, whether happy or sad till the very last min of my working hrs before i can let it out.. such torture... i can even feel it now.. we had promised not to talk anything or even compare our results le rite... better keep our promise ah.. or i'll be damn sian and dislike it man.. i mean it.. kk.. i logging off le.. too tired to continue anymore.

super sIanz weEk...

bRb... sIans ah
okie,boring week in the office.. nothing much to talk abt..
today, me, elna, jeff and joycelyn played gamerival in the office during teabreak.. and tat stup elna shouted ''click'' so loudly, imagine in middle of nowhere, she shout.. den everyone laugh at her la.lucky got no meeting, otherwise the NgLC suRe come over one.. everyone in the office, excluding the cheap labour, are super busy, coz PeK kEoW was on half day leave, and got critical defecT so we still can't start testing.. hehee.. hope tml also like dat den shiok shiok liaoz.
just came hm after shopping, bought a new slipper.. got POST CNY sale @ isetan, today last day lehz, so i had a good buy, taka stadium also having sales,(elna tell me one) so i tempted to buy shoe somemore.. but tat irritating sales assistant, nv find den tell me no more size le.. (slap him den he know sia)..
kk, super tired now, i wan go slp. otherwise can't lame anymore tml.. good nitEz.. coz i wanna be a lame gaL.. coz the lame gal's life is great! i dun wan my result to come out yeT, is it okie with you? smiles!

tat cOw bloster was frm hIm okie. cutE anot? 

HapPy CNY & V daY

HaPPy CNY & VAlEnTinE'S daY

wow, i havEn't bloG for A weeK man, althOugh it was suppose to be a hOliday, a look weeK breAk for me, but it ended up to be a long, exciTing, and tiring holidaY.hahhhaha..
During tat week, i planned to go out with Peggy,meet up wif my pri sch mates, go to keViN's house, but in the end, i spent the whole week with my family.. gng home visiting everywhere, and entertaining guests at hm too.. very shiok shiok can collect ang baO, but dun seem like i collected alot, my fren say this yr ang baos got sales, up to 70%.. hahaha laMe la!should have tried my luck when i played dai di.or blackjack.. haha din lay my hand on the mahjong tiles, so not shiok shiok.. hahah but nvm it's a virtue not to gamble!! my boy so very proud of me 1.ahaha..
so hOw's everyone spending theIr holiday? dun seem like everyone rested well, seems even more tired. heheh.. today every1 in the office looked so dead, but nvm, coz it's V day, we manage to hyper up and entertain urselves.. hhha
today is V day, how did u all spent it with your love ones. actually mine is nothing special or romantic. i think it's not neccessary, so we just had a simple dinner @ the muslim food restuarant, oh... beFoRe tat we went for 2 games of bowling. hahah shIok sIa, this week already play bowling thrice le... but still not sick of it lehz.den later i came hm and watch the 9 oclock show, < the One>>.. it's quite nice, and tat's the end of story. seems boring to ya, but i thought it's just okIe. nothing extravagent. so.. tat's all folKs.. hoPe you haD a wonderfuL V day.. and also thanks you guys for the wonderful day in the office, and the gift exchange. receive a very very very ''nIce'' gift fRm vIvI. haha.. nt gonna comment anymore! so goOd niTes. and seE ya all soOn..hehehehe

Reunion Dinner was gReat!

my family. my sis look so sian ahhaha

sIao kin-na!

they wanna be peK keOw's understudiEs.

wOw, supEr the buay taHan siA, this 2 ah sIao, wannabe-s of P.K. hahah..
tOok thIs after WOrk, whEn we gOt notHing to do; so many things happeN @ wOrk thIs week, so buSy tat we gOt no tIme to updAte the BlOg, now the 1 wk breaK is herE.. must cherisH it manz.
recently very bu shuang with many ppLe, @ wOrk and wIf my ageNcy, RECRUIT EXPRESS... they AlreaDy keNa bLacKlIsted by me le. haHa.. thEy chEat my mOney.den stIll ask me to confirm den tell them again. wad's this man, so many pple to be bu shuang wIth unTil i very tIred now. the canteen auntie i also very bu shuang, still dUn undErstaNd hoW she gOt the EmplOyer of E mOntH lOr.. must be VoTe herself in one! she sucks la.. spill awAy the red/green bean soUp on one of the tea break de other day.. but i dun caRe liaOZ. she just sUcks.

i gOt too much to wrIte, dun know where to start. so i very dun bother le. i dun wan to tell you anymore.. i wan go slp liaoz.. see ya!! zzZZzzzZZzz

?? sTrOng tEam sPiRit!! do u get me.. ??

ah SiaO gaNg! tOok thIs pIc wIth rIsk!

hI, this is the 3 bAos family, still in search of si bao

da bao, er bao, and san bao family pic!!

hahah.. i just downloaded all the pics, nw trying to upload them onto imagestaTion.. hehe this is my new happy famiLy, but it'll be brokEn soon, so soon like tml i think, elnA will be moVing out to AdmIn, den tat er bAo will go do file reconcilation, den left me alone in the command center.later tat SH coming in and kP, den i'll be super sIan la.. so hoPe SH beTa keep her mouth tight otherwise i use masking tape sia..

today i bring my cousin, Nat nat go swiming with me @ my bf house. she play until very shioK sia, den we took ViDeO for her... liKe mTV liddat, den laTer in The AfTernOon, i caMe hM and baKe coOkie, oAtmeaL chOcolAte chIp cookIe, my ma say niCe but abit too swEet. nvm, i'll try agIn next weeK... ah my ma aSk me go Slp agaIn, and my daddy is lOoking at the MonitoR frm my baCk, still tryIng to sneak ard here and there.. haahah...

today was a fUn day, although didn't liKe slP alOt, but did quIte alOta thIng, so qUite fruitful lor.. oh ya, last nite i finally met Peggy onliNe, and taLk to her, at least i get to 'C' her onLine, if not, i think i'm lossing 1 good fRen agaIn, seeMs even mOre no tIme den whEn i'm in sChool.. i really mIss scH man, all the crazy pple who will mad wif me, all the crazy teacher who can taKe my lameness and lazineSs... so unliKe thIs place, can't eVen give me a kItKat ( have a break, have a kItKat) gOt it? hahha.jUst need soMe time to RelAx thE eyes, before i continue to stare at the com agaIn tml onwArds.. heng i think i dunnit to wOrk OT tml liaOZ. hOpe can go OuT wIf Kang on tUesday, 'S' beTter dUn spOil my PlAn sIa.

kkk.. san bAo, hopE u like the dinner we had on sat, too bad er baO missed us OUt, hoPe she had a good sushi meal wIth her bOng bOng, and hOpefUlly, is not at TAKA COLD STORAGE.. hahahah

gOd bLess Us.

me and peggy's first attempt in baking cake.. it still looks like a cake rite? 

== wow.. so WOW loR ==

haiz, i'm so tirEd nOw, just camE home, finish my bathe.
toDay is such a tiring day,so exciting lo.go ard irritating pple, prank and plot on others, like nobodies business like tat..den go town, keep walking abt, hiding frm ah doG here and dere,oopss... it's not ah doG, it's pEk KEoW.hahah..

toopId ah dog,too loneLy today,keep walking abt, trying to imitate P.K..maYbe coz 'S' not here toDay, every1's morAl is high, and works happIly,no one disturb us also.

jus wanna thanks LifEn's ma for making such marvellous sandwiches, jocyln(pardon if i spell wrongly again) say she also wanna do for us on monday, i really appreciate man, coz my ma sometimes also got monday blues, den dun wan make breakfast for me.. she getting farnie-er and farnie-er sia.. hahah...and our command center officer karen for bring her cake to share with us,( karen(carrot's) cake)..

i told kevin tat his writing is eligible for me. and thanks for his co-operation, but he bu shuang us just now, ps us on the train,den he suddenly alight at toa payoh.. then i tot they plotting on me, den ah doG will alight and noVena, and eLna drop at Newton..then i'll end up gng oRchard myself rite.. heng sia, dey not tat bad to me..hehe

den ah,kenrick ask 3 ah siao to go plot against tat SRJC gal during lunch, but we din, in the end, me elna n minzhi sat together, den LiFen keNa out-casted fOr notHing.. hahah .. dunno she got bu shuang anot, i den sms her tell sorry lo, den she laugh and keep casting me tat bu shuang look.. i so scare.. like real only la..but we are the best of the best combo liaos okies.. no one can fight with us liaoz.den later i call her ask her, where she gng with her boy, she say go eat sushi, @ Orchard, so i told her, we go opp dir.we go boon lay eat sushi, so i think she believe me la.. so smart of her rite..

sO very shuang de, me elna and ah dog only, went to town on a Mass Rapid Transport.once we came out of the station, we say khia E and minzhI,dey left much earlier den us, but they say they just reach,hahah.. still waiting for friend. so waste time one lor.. den 3 of us went eat pasta at taka foodcourt dere.. hope thy think it's nice, coz i think mine is not bad la.i quite like it, although i so pai seh i order ah dog's sauce wrongly..hehehe, so we went ard town, working abt, bumping into tat ah dog's fren, suddenly realise town got alot of doggie.. hahah.. very shuang la.. keep laughing at our common target, keep imitating them and irritating other pple..hahah. Elna go scare a kid @hello! la.. she saw the boy wanted to take the 'phone' in e display, so she went up to him and go..''xiao didi, tat one bu ke yi na de..'' doTs rite.. so lamE la.. den the boy gave tat STUNTED lOok.. so bui tahan her la, and her lousy handbag spoiled.. so she squeeze her bag into mine.hahha.

okie, today highlights, the most shuang part of the day..
me and ah dog successfully plotted on ELna, hahah.. we all laugh until cannot stop la..
me and jeff plotted to change eLna phonebook.. change my no to PeK KeOw(my manager) no. .. den later jeff will keep my phone away.. so coincidentally, xinyi came and ask me, where is my phone, so i acted blur lor, den i act panic liaoz, so i happily (in the dark) ask eLna call my phone, den.. drama started..

huihui: eh, my phone nv ring le...can't hear it...
Elna(picking up her phone to hear whether there is any sound): erm, hello...
ELna thought tat the person switched off my phone.. den there'll be this lady who will say''the subscribe is currently not available, please try again later''.
Elna:''Hello..."
Pek KeOw (in the other end of the phone):''hello..."
Elna:''hello, may i speak to huihui?''
Pek keOw: huh??
den elNa koup the phOne le.. end of story.. i kept laughing and laughing.. hahahaha
den later ah, elNa and ah dOg dey wanted to plot on me, but i smart la.. i check the no.. first.before i call.. hahaha
so i'm saved.. heheheh

it was a great and WoW day.. nv had so much fun already.. now abit the tired..
just wanna thanks my bRo for acc me hm jus now.if not i'll be so sian alone on the bus, so thanks ah.. hahhah.. sorrie today nv go shopping with you, promise nxt time i'll go with ya kk..

now, i'm tired after all the talking and laughing all day long, it's time to slp and replenish all my slp.. den monday i'll do my work seriously le,coz i got no more elna to crap with me, and ah dog gng to inDia to work liaOZ.. hurry come back k.. dun loss ur way, with each passing day, dun go so far, dun loss it away.. ... so inspiring rite.. kk.. good nitEs every1.

thunderous DaE!! u Sux!

''BITCH!!!!''
wad the fu*k does she want.so bloody irritating,she is a bit senile i guess. things are so obvious yet she can't even figure it out herself.or maybe she just wanna piCk one me.but who cares. jus feel insulted as she doesn't get what i mean, yet when iKea explain to her, den she can take it.
who's at fault.never mind, not as if i need her money. she can sack me anytime she likes.but too bad, she doesn't have such powEr and authority.so she just have to tolerate wif my such high intelligence and hopefully her EQ is high enough to tolerate me.if not, i think she better take more MCs.

somemore, that 'S' was late for work today, come in only, see tat face black black, totally spoils our day, can't she just cover her duty well enough n stop poking her nose into others business.shE just sucks.nvm, i'm just tat good, too good to be under her.1 day, if i get into this company, she'll die.the first to get retrenched by me, will be her!!! but lucky her, i'll nv step into this company anymore.

if not for the bunch of friends i have here, i would hav done more crazy things , show her more attitude and get myself out of this shit company, but she heng sia, my friends had made me change my mind, again and again..now every morning, when i wake up, i'll think of them, to motivate me to come to work.

i guess she's just jealous of Toong hUo and AiliNg, so en ai,everyday sit together, work together, go home together. Remember she once told me tat toong huo once offered her a ride home, but now like never le.. so maybe these few days when she work OT, she's hoping tat Toong HuO will offered a ride, but too bad, ailing is his priorities, so she just hav to go back by her own, OT for nothing ba.. hahah too bad for her la.. she ask for it, she deserves it...

i must be hated her to the core le, tat's why i'm saying things behind her back. it's since like dunno when i have hated some1 so much, she's now in my condemned list! Top 2 somemore.. hope she go out to the road (censored to ur own imagination)... okie.. no more mood to blog anymore.. coz tat BITCh has spoiled my day.

yesterday i went to far east again, had quite a good buy, necklaces, braclets, anklets and earings, all 3 for $10.. not bad rite..and i bought a pair of BLUE shoes for $10 only.. cheap hor.. it's frm ILT, but i think the sizes are limited.. kk..black clouds over my head. see ya

A hArd Day'S woRk... DoTsss..

hahha, i can't believe i'm so fated with the 'blacks'! evil thoughts again!!
No, it's just me.
this mOrning, i was taking traIn frm BB mRt to YIO CHU KANG mRt.
Then 2 indian workers (frm e construction site) boarded e train at KRANJI. i was hoping that they won't sit beside me as i have 2 empty seats there (1 on my left, the other on my right)...
TheN.....
i heaRd deM saId..
''Let's sit down..'' and, so they both happily sat besIde me, with me in the middle.
OMG, this is torturous..and so the whole day was 'dark' for me. hehehe..
den, in order to 'brighten' up my day, i din alot of lame stuff wif eLna, and angeline. we kepT sending prank sms, i even msg eLna, to tell her tat Pek kEow is lOoking for her.. heheh..den she played along, and acted like she very scare lyk tat.. hahha
afTer lunch, i wanted to blog, den tat 'S' came in and ask me to go helP SH, and acc her.so i went... den tat lame elnA, stupidly telly me and say she calling frm RECRUIT CLUB.. hahah it's suppose to be RECRUIT EXPRESS la.. hahah.. so.. in the end, her plot fail again. i bluff to her tat she's on loudspeaker too, which actually she's not.. hehehe. so lyk tat la.. i spent half my day lyk tat, so bo liaoz rite..
oh yeah, tat stupid elnA move the files today, den she put angel-line files as devil-line... dOts rite.. cant believe we live here for 18 + yrs liaoz, yet we stIll so LamE.. hahah but we can walk k.
den something happen in training rm today, but i dunno wad.so i act lyk i dun care, but actually i wan to kPo abt it, just waiting 4 sm1 to tell me..(hint hint)
heard alot of rumours too.. dunno whIch to believe,anyway we nv even slack / enjoy in e command center lo.. we only have our leisure time after we complete our work.. so i really dun understand who ever idiot is it, go complain dat we enjoy too much.. but most of the time, the person who complains e most, always does the simplest job, lyk bootlicking the senior, and always trying to escape frm task by asking others to cover her duty while he/she go do other simple things lyk check defect frm, (hoPe i'm nOt being oBvioUs here).. hahaha..
just before 6 or just pass 6, i got a bad news tat spoil my spoilt day. so nw my day has become rotten, my good fren, eLna and viVian will be transferred out next week.. i'm gonna miss theM manz.. and E pPle who are coming here, are so hmm... i dunno how to describe la.. but just turns my stomach round, make me wanna puke.. haIz..but i guess i just got to bear wif it.. lucKy still goT aNgeline witH me, and taT IKEA gaL.. so hopefully they'll continue to entertain me.. heheh...
sO many tHings haPpen in a daY. so SiAns can.. nvm, ming tian hui gen hao.. just heard frm blUe dat e BoYs are coming back tml! wElcOme baCk k..i'm loOking 4warD.
JusT nw i meT my ma at far eaSt to cut our haIr, so now i have a neW haIrdo.. so doEs my ma.. i think my ma hair now nicer den mine, i so jealous of her.. but her haircut is suPer ex la.. dunno why she lyk to go there.. maybe old pple thinkin, oRcharD rD do one is bettEr, so maybe she think wortH the MonEy lo.. hahah i siaO liaOZ.. wan go sLp soon..
hoPe i not meeTing tat 2 indians again.. if not, next time i'll take bus le.. hahahahahahha