What's Wrong

What's Wrong???

My friends always tell me, i really admire you and your guy, so loving and supportive of each other. You all look like you are ready to be for each other for the rest of your lives..

oh issit... i always wish it's the case, i don't know why. lazy to look for love,so just wanna stick with him forever? or what is it?

The love still seem strong(at least my love for him is) but i don't know what wrong recently.. am i asking too much from him, or do i have too high expectation of him. Or did he just trying to give up his life to some setback and difficulties that he face everyday? i don't know what wrong lately, but it doesn't seem like we are understanding each other anymore, even when i seem to know how he feels, he thinks i don't.. same for him i guess..

Falling in love always seem so easy, why staying in love seem so tiring for me.. after coming to 3 yrs, where do i stand? where are we going? still in the same direction? So much about love? some ask me do you envy those who are single and happy.. i'll post the qn back to them, then do you envy those who are attached but still as happy as can be? But now, i don't know who i should envy? both parties seems like a disgusting position to be in...

what is love? what is being there for each other? what's wrong? i don't know.. why did he suddenly turn his back unto me, and the last sentence he said to me was ''then dun talk to me''... oh shit did i say something wrong before that... maybe i did.. all i said was '' when i talk to you, i feel like strangling myself ''... haiz.. should i not have said that at all.. but that was how i really felt then.. is there something wrong.. i really dunno.. but i'm also too tired to think anymore.. i just feel like sleeping and dream that it can go back 3 years ago and i want to start all over again.. will i still make the same decision, will i still do the same thing? will we still choose to be seperated... haiz. why ask so much.. i just don't want to think about it anymore.

i'm so useless...