I wish I was there to help her with her report

I had a 9am class today and was walking back. while listening to my mp3 plyer, I missed her so much. I was thinking of the time when she came over in Brisbane just to accompany me during my first sememster. We had such a great time. I was so happy when she told me she might be coming over here again this time but only for a short 2 weeks. I really hope this would come true as words cannot describe how much I need her. Especially with so much worries right now, i am feel very lost. My thesis just started and I am very unsure how to go about doing it. It is a study on antennas. Another big decision is weather i should continue with EMF subject or change to DSP. Both have their own difficulties but I think I might just go with DSP. God please help me along the way even if i made a wrong decision...

Yesterday, she was rushing her report. Looking at her, I wish i could be there to do all the finishing touches for her. although this might be a simple job, it could as least ease her mind off to do other work while i do the contents page, cover, alightment, printing, etc. All these may also take up quite alot of time. Throughout the one month back in Singapore, I was helping her with all these and I really enjoyed it. I never complainted at all because I was so glad to be helping her. As long as I see her not so stressed out, I would feel happy too. It certainly feels the same for her but all I have done is to show my stress to her. I know it would make her feel very sad whenever I am unhappy. It is not easy at all to enjoy urself and who says going overseas to study is enjoyment. everyday is so stressful!!...

I miss her and hope she would cope well with her school work. I love her....

always loving hui,
Kenrick

Kenrick: She is my motivation

Today was my first day this sememster cooking for everyone. the usual life starts again as i had to cook dinner once a week for everyone. There are 7 ppl and each of us take turns to cook. luckily i have my friend to help me if not it would be real tiring.

I was just broswing through the picture that my gf and I took in Batam. although it was only a very short trip (2day1night), it was so memorable. Although it was a month ago,it is still very fresh in my mind. going back to singapore and straight away gng for a trip with her was all i could dream of. the kind of excitment is unexplanable. however, I now have to face the fact that we are being seperated once more. One week of School just ended and I am very worried about so many things. everything is everywhere, I am feeling quite lost, alot of things I do not know but no choice, i know i cannot just give up like that. I will try my best to push on but somethings hundles become so hard to climb that you just want to give up. I always ask myself that would this be worth it, I really hope at the end of the day, my efforts would be paid off and I could get the results that I hoped for.

My gf is in a worst situation now, with all the test and exams around the corner, what worst, she has 3 reports to hand in. I totally understand her feeling as I have been through this before, but I cant imagine myself in her shoes. There was an incident when i had 2 reports and 1 assignment to hand in, already I was struggling. It is really not easy to handle the mental stress as while u r doing this thing, ur mind would keep thinking about other stuff that is undone. However, she is much stronger than I am. She is working very hard as well and I hope my encouragement for her is enough for her to carry on. Just bear in there ok, I know it is tough, I will always be supporting you all the way. I am sorry I cant do it physcially but I will pray for you every night. In one way or another, throughout my past one year, god has helped me alot so I believe he also can see ur hardwork and help you as well.

I would always love you with all my heart. 3 years is not a short time and every moment spend with you is so precious. I have nv regreted having you as my other partner and I am really glad you have given me the chance to prove I am a worthy boyfriend. Hope I have not dissapoint you so far, I promise i will provide you with happiness for as long as possible. Lets hope that there wil be more beautiful years for us in the future...

...

Today, I Miss Him...

basically, i'm feeling blue and my mood is grey..

I feel weak and tired..

I just don't feel like moving at all..

Preoccupied thoughts flowing out of my mind,

3rd order neurons flowing, but 1st order motor neuron not responding at all..

Not even reflexes are working...

Life has momentarily stop. I just wish to stop forever..

Life in sch is really stressing me out..

Life without him seems to be turning gray..

Lastly Life is not beautiful anymore..

Reports and more reports dateline to meet.

Not last minutes,has been pacing myself,

but still not meeting target.. How low efficient I'm.

Although my dearest hp had been missing for a few weeks,

i still miss it alot.

Haiz, Life has no colour anymore...

Last week dinner together,

this week dinner on my own.

Last week should have just stop at last week..

I wish for holidays to come.

I'm breaking down soon...

Accumulated tears are flowing out of the lacrimal gland,

seems like that is a blockage of lacrimal duct,

coz tears can't be absorbed, and it just can't stop.

I'm not strong anymore.

Today, I Miss Him...

I know that she is suffering, having studied so hard for her prac test yet it did not turn out well. I know she must be saying should have went to lab more often but given that limited time, that was the best she can do so it is ok my dear, we tried out best so let the outcome be what it would be. Alot of times we regret what we are doing becoz we meet alot of obstacles along th way but this cant be helped. Life is not perfect. Nothing is easy and especially as studies get to a higher level, no more like secondary, there is no time to ply and take it easy. Hardwork does not equal to output. At least we have to put in our best effort and just pray to god that at the end of the day, he knows what we are doing and can see how much effort we have put in.

She is so nice to let me use her blog to publise something here. I am just too lazy to create an account. I think for the next few months, this would be another communication tool with her. I miss her hugs and kisses, remember very strongly the last day when we were walking down to adam road for a simple dinner, I had mixed feelings. I may seem undisturbed but deep inside me, I was happily having dinner with her yet I am feeling sad because I can countdown to the number of hours before I board my flight back to Australia. I do not know how to describe that kind of feeling but at the point just hoped that time would just stop there so that i just eat nasi lemak and prawn noodle with her.

I miss her so much, no one can replace her in my life, she is my motivation, my soul, my everything. I cant imagine life without her. As this is my first time blogging, I wish to tell the whole world, I LOVE YOU. Lets now hope we would not have to be seperated again after my degree...

he left me on a jet plane.

Just as i'm writing this post. he's already on the plane.. i just sent him off about 4hrs ago..
This time, i'm strong. I didn't cry at the airport anymore.. but i still miss him very much. Although this is already the 3rd time we are seperating at the airport, but everytime i just miss him more and more. This time we seperated with more fears and more worries for each other.i'm really worried for him if he'll be able to manage the stress level there. Studying is really not easy, especially when you are all alone..

Exams are around the corners, but reports still not completed yet.. and wat's more still got practical exams before paper starts. hAiz.. life is really tough.. don't know how to score.. just wish i can do reasonable well.. but feel tat i'm already lagging behind alot.. i dun know how i can catch up.. too much for me to cope..

Feeling sick on the last 2 days i had left with him.. but still tried to put up a strong front coz i know if i'm sick he'll sure be very worried for me.. but now..i really feel weak..so weak tat i can't concentrate studying..

Tml will be a new beginning.We will be living 2 hours apart again.. Everyday will be a new beginning now.. i just have to live with it until 5 months later.. when will there not be anymore seperation..i'm waiting for that day.

i miss him.

today is a bad day.

I LoSt my HandphOne...

today i lost my handphone which was only 3months old. i could only blame myself. How sleepy head i was, just board the train without checking if i left anything behind. and how sleepy head i was, didnt even realise i lost it, until i reach yio chu kang mrt station. Anyone who were at Newton MRT station on the 12th July 2006 at around 8am. If u witness anyone stealing a Samsung D600-C from a black purse, pls contact me or tag me here..

Tat kind soul actually return my purse with my cards in it,but not with my handphone in it. I dun know whether to be happy or sad. I mean tat handphone had lotsa of feeling attached to it, and had witnessed many events during this past 3 mths. ok, being sad is one thing, i had been sad for almost the past 12hours, despite all the encouragement and comfort from my friends and loved ones, it's not helping. For once, mummy didn't scold me for being so blur. but i'm still blaming myself. Anyway friends, i had lost all contacts, so pls send me your no. ok..

Another 4 more wks to exam.. scare and worried.. fearful of practical exams.. hopefully reports and pract exams will pull me up otherwise i can see no As again... Anyway case studies were quite interesting this time, and the visit to IMH was eye opening and it's much much better than the other place tat i went last sem.. haha..

Encephalitis, AIDs and HIV, Epilepsy, Dementia, Depression.. this is all i'm reading on this whole sem.. anyway, pple go read Lifewise if you have tat small leaflet, there's issue on OT.. if u wanna know What OT does, can ask me for that issue.. i can lend it to you... bye..

some shots of us in batam.. it was a great time there, and really got to get myself away from stress although at some time, i was till think of my oink oink when i was there.. but had a great fun and hope i can go there again...

Anyway it's already coming to second wk of the 2nd term of my 2nd year in NYP.. time is turning really fast.. really scary also.. hope i can commit fully into my studies now,coz play time is over..my lecturer was saying the occupation of the child is to play and maybe go to school? i'm no longer a kid so wad's my occupation? only to go to school and do well? aiyo.. i also dunno la.. also confused...

Let it be.. Let it be..
Let it be.. Let it be...
There will be an answer..
Let it be....
- Beatles 

FInal FantAsi

Finally it's all over.. This is the final product. But do you notice something missing..

Anyway for those who still dunno what this animal is, it's a pig.. it's called oink oink.. some pple will know why it's called oink oink.. anyway i took me about 2 wks to complete it.. and the brown stuff on the ground is mud not shit ok!?!

I was away at batam.. will put more photos on my batam trip when i'm more ready.. it was funny.. did cable ski there, and i completed 4/5 of the route.. i'm satisfied with that performance... haha. had lotsa fun there, despite it being short, only 1night stay.. but it was still fun.. i think i should ask more friends to go nxt time.. will be much more fun.. we can camp together and stuff... Tat's why i said, there is always 2 side to a coin, just like there's 2 side to batam..

Today, did a case study on a HIV positive case.. and my facilitator passed a remark, imagine wad will you see him doing outside working time... will he being queuing at harbourfront to batam.. haha i was laughing to myself inside, i always thought my facilitator was an open-minded person, but now i know... she thinks of batam as dirty too...

But batam is just dirty and backwards.. the only irritating thing about batam is that the horn is not used as an emergency tool anymore, it's a tool they used to attract tourists to take their taxi... i was like WTH.. total noise pollution on the street man, especially when i was walking in town with my bf.. they were about to recognise us as tourist just by one look.. i was amazed..

anyway gtg... will post nicer pictures nxt time. 

a)

b)
erm, hi pple, can you do a poll for me? which is nicer to include into my report? A? or B? erm, can't make up my mind.. rushing out my creativity report by hook or by crook by tonight, coz will be off for a short short and i really mean short getaway at batam tml.. so have to rush my report..

hope everyone's doing fine.. and i guess all my classmates are crashing their report now as well.. i like the idea tat i gave to crystal.. really dreamy and abstract.. i like.. can't wait to see my friends' report and product too..

lastly i can't wait for him to come back.. another like 18hours i can see him face to face.. haha... i hope the sky hurry darken, and dawn to come. but then i still got alot of report to rush before i can go batam tml..

Wad a delimma.. girls are just indecisive.. haha

bYe. 

before and after

Before and After.. My progress for today.

 

Creativity.. my piggilla

One and Only piggy..

i'm thinking of giving my piggy a name. then i tot of babe in the city.. and then i tot of gozilla when i saw the picture down there.. then i tot why not call it Pig-Gilla.. haha... so that's where the name come out from. now my pig-Gilla is all white and under the fan to dry, hopes it doesn't catch a cold there. i'm gng to stay designing the layout for my report. i'm hungry..
and some one said the pig is nice.. haha achievement neh...
haha
got to go do my report liao..
ciaoz

 

Glimpse of fifa World Cup 2006

 

 

kenrick is a mugger

My Mugger Boy!
Jiayou!
counting down another 4 days!
I'll pick you up at Changi Terminal 2 ok?

missing you..

I need inspiration for my creativity and counselling..
I want creativity for my creativity..
i want counselling for my counselling..
haha.
came out with a conclusion with zhenzhen, because our mother
are called the same name, tat's why we both have double names..
huihui & zhenzhen, and her sister is called, peipei.
wad a jokE!

Holiday is not coming! Hell is...

Just missing you

I'm Missing You!

It's raining cats and dogs early in the morning at 8am. I got up to realise i forgot to set my alarm clock.. everything is starting to not go right. Then i realise i'm gng to sch later at 10.which means i only left with 2 hrs to revise my work.
But it started raining cats and dogs, not tat i don't like rainy days when i was just complaining that the weather is so humid last night tat it made me restless.. but then i don't like to drive in rainy days.So ma fan, especially when the aircon is not working so well. oh dear.i can see trouble coming.
Anyway, he finish his first paper yesterday, first thing he told me was "no hope".. How pessimistic can you get my dear.. and continue to say he only know how to solve it when he walks out of the exam hall..oh dear. can you tell me what's wrong? too stress? mental block?
Anyway i think we should just concentrate on the other 2 papers, as long as you tried your best already. There is no regrets even the results didn't turn out to be excellent. But i know you'll still pull thru coz you are such a lucky chap. God's with you as long as you pray to him.
Can't wait for you to return in exactly a wk's time and we can be off to Batam. I hope it doesn't rain cats and dogs in Batam too, coz i dun wann be stuck in the shelter.. i want the sun to relax and shower me with warmth.. and with you around, i'm such a fortunate girl.. I wanna go soak in the sun,and enjoy cable skiing, parasailing, and even bungee jumping if you dare. I wanna do all the ACTION there if i can. Although it's just one night out, i think it's enough to just let me recharge and get ready for the next term.
Really feel burned out this hols. Having some activities almost everyday, can't really settle down to do my work too. and now, i'm blogging.. wad the hell.. i just miss JC or Secondary sch hols when i can just go band and band everyday. and leave my work and revision to last min or late at night and i'll still feel full of energy to study.. but now, as sun goes down, my morale and energy goes down with the sun. Especially now that there's no sun, my energy is not up too.. oh dear... i only have one more wk to complete so many things.. i don't have time.
I just wish every hols i can be there with you, with this rainy feeling, i just miss you even more. I wish we can be next to each other and give each other warmth. Looking at all the past photos that we took together, i just wanna cry it out and cry to my eyes swell so that you can come back to me.. but it's not going to work. I know i have to complete my work by 1 wks time, but the intrinsic motivation is not there yet. How??
Someone pls push me, and ask me to wake up!

my daddy

This man is my dad... usually i don't talk about him, because he's just too good. But seriously he needs some credit too. Without him, i really dunno who can handle the devil and demons in me and my sibilings.
My daddy is a man who doesn't like pple to flatter him, so whenever pple praise him, he will say it's not his effort alone and will say other does more than he did..
He is a hardworking, although he doesn't work 2 jobs, but he treat his job seriously. Although he is not working under pple noses, but he bring himselves down to his workers and behave just like one. He is always there for his workers and will help them as much as possible.
To the Family, he tries to give his best and be there whenever he can. Recently, he tries to spend more time with the family but he still spend more time at work. He is tanned, and often mistaken as a blangadesh. His degree of tan is how much time he spend working under the hot sun, earning bucks for the family.
He's a good man, he tries to listen to us, gives us the freedom to make decision and make us think about what is right or wrong. He discipline us like little kids, but tries very hard to treat us as adult now. But he told us, no matter what age you are, in my eyes, you will always be my children. even until the age of 50, if i'm still around, you are still children in my eyes. He might sound really protective over us. but the hidden meaning in those words are, he loves us for no matter who we are.
I thank him for trying to understand us so well.and finally accepting and being proud of me to be in this Occupational Therapy course. Thank you for not objecting my choice anymore. Thank you for recognising that this path that i had chosen will be a bright future. and thank you for listening and helping me whenever i'm in trouble. I'll never forget those times when you teach me how to park the car and the times when you'll do art work with me, and come into my room just to check on me, to make sure that i'm fine and breathing(heheh). I know you care, you just don't say it out loud that you care.
I love you daddy..
Happy Fathers' Day.

 

Occ as therapy at Fort Canning

It took place yesterday.. no time to put up the photos. but will do it really soon! so stay tune~ haha

Yue Ding - Guang Liang


Listen to that story.. Tells a tale of a lover, who had a pact to meet together after 3 years of seperation.But then later things didn't turn out right at the 3rd year when they suppose to meet...

Is long distance relationship so vulnearable?Can a lover really not stay together if they are seperated.. I read on 'Shape' magazine and there was this small article that physical intimacy is important in a relationship! oh pls.. didn't you also hear that absence makes the heart grow fonder?

Anyway no matter a relationships works out or not it depends on not just physical intimacy. it's the trust, the faith and the support that you give one another.

i felt that that story was alittle similar to mine, except tat we do see each other in between those 2 yrs. so life is not as made. And soon after his return,it'll be my turn to leave this place. Looks like god is trying to make fun of us, but i believe love is still strong enough to withstand all trials and temptations.. that is what i mean by true love.

Somehow, trials and temptations also make love stronger at the same time. wad a reciprocal relationships.. they just can't do without one another.

I wish all lovers (whether short or long distance) all the best, and learn to cherish one another starting from now, not only when you lost them.

My friend said, she's happy being a single, but also misses the being loved times when she sees and hears lovely couples around them.. I got no comment, but i believe no one lives on this planet alone. So even if you are single, you still have your partner( might not be your lover,but a really gd friend or family member with you) so god never make us feel alone!

Friends ? what is the definition?

A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO SEES YOU THROUGH THE GOOD TIMES AND THE BAD. A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO MAKES YOU HAPPY AND IS THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU'RE SAD.

The LORD Jesus Christ gave us the definition of a true friend in John. "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. Ye are my friends, if ye do whatsoever I command you. Henceforth I call you not servants; for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth: but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you" (John 15:13-15). Jesus is the pure example of a true friend for He laid down His life for His "friends." What is more, "who so ever will" may become His friend by trusting in Him as their personal savior, being born again and receiving new life in Him.

Jesus also gave a parable concerning friendship in Luke. "And he said unto them, Which of you shall have a friend, and shall go unto him at midnight, and say unto him, Friend, lend me three loaves; For a friend of mine in his journey is come to me, and I have nothing to set before him? And he from within shall answer and say, Trouble me not: the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed; I cannot rise and give thee. I say unto you, Though he will not rise and give him, because he is his friend, yet because of his importunity he will rise and give him as many as he needeth. And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you. For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened" (Luke 11:5-10).

In other words not even friendship could move this person to open the door in the middle of the night but the "importunity" or the persistence of the knocker persuaded the friend to open to him. The lesson here is that some times human friendships have their limitations and that persistence reaps benefits.

There is an example of true friendship between David and Saul's son Jonathon, who in spite of his father Saul's pursuit of David and attempts to kill him, stood by his friend. You will find that story in 1 Samuel chapter 18 through chapter 20. Some pertinent passages are 1 Samuel 18:1-4; 19: 4-7; 20:11-17, 41-42.

Proverbs is another good source of wisdom regarding friends. "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity" (Proverbs 17:17). "A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother" (Proverbs 18:24). The issue here is that in order have a friend one must be a friend. "Faithful are the wounds of a friend; but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful" (Proverbs 27:6). "Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend" (Proverbs 27:17).

I am also reminded of the principle found in Amos. "Can two walk together, except they be agreed" (Amos 3:3). Friends are of like mind. The truth that comes from all of this is that friendship is that relationship that is entered into by individuals and it is only as good or as close as those individuals choose to make it. Some one has said that if you can count your true friends on the fingers of one hand, you are blessed. A friend is one whom you can be yourself with and never fear that they will judge you. A friend is someone that you can confide in with complete trust. A friend is someone you respect and that respects you, not based upon worthiness but based upon a likeness of mind.

Finally, I must return to the real definition of a true friend. "For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:7-8). "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends" (John 15:13). Now, that is true friendship!

weeeee

Haha.. this is dedicated to nengjie.. not my lover, but my really gd friend. Since primary Sch.. had supper with him just now, coz he's going to tekong on sat liao.. so must treat him to a gd meal. but end up i was the old one eating, the rest of them were just drinking sugar cane juice. So more photos to come. but meanwhile, all the best to my this pri sch buddy! take care in tekong, don't let the flies and mosquitoes attack you! haha..

i'll post more photos when i'm free.