misery

Viking or roller coaster? which is most suitable to describe my life now?

I guess it's Viking, at least i know there are times when roller coaster travel straight right.
My mood swings like the Vike, and i am feeling totally lost, lost in the battle, lost in direction, lost my self-esteem too. It had been a exciting 2 wks of hols, and in fact,i'm looking forward to more,but then it seems like it's time i come to a stop.

After looking at my results today, tears flooded the table in front of me. I don't know whether i'm dissapointed or full of regrets,but i must say i really tried my best already.But why did my results turn out so disgustingly.

Pple always say, you will reap what you had sow. is it always true. i doubt so. i mean, i really put in effort, even lost contacts with many friends because i'm totally busy with the hell of sch work and projects. always staying in the library, busy doing readup and all, but why still like tat. i also dunno why.it's just unexplanable to me at this moment.

i'm losing that confident i used to have, and most importantly, i'm losing the chance to excel.

it's not as if i didn't work hard at all, but it still turned out like tat.I'm not saying it's anyone fault, and even so,it's my own fault.maybe i should have tried harder when i tot i already tried my best.

Something happened at home, and something happened to myself, so i'm giving a miss to the sailing trip. I would not enjoy myself even if i go,and i'm feeling guilty if i go.so yup,i'm not gng this time. i must do better next sem and make up for my stupid mistake this time. I must also keep a clean bill of health so that i won't miss class and miss out important stuff. i hate myself. i hate myself. i hate myself.

I wanna go for Retail Therapy, anyone interested?

life is just so simple

Just that Simple Life...

finally, exam's over. holiday is here.

BUt it's just another lonely holiday without him by my side. it's god's will.We are seperated by land and water. only when i'm busy, he will be free, and vice versa.tell me what can i do.Not to go against god's will, but i just want back that kind of life, where i can enjoy myself with him. I just wanna spend time with him, after his busy schedule. Somehow, we always see the busy side of one another that we are starting to forget those enjoyable moment that we had together. haiz.

nothing much this hols, but i'm all ready for the coming sailing trip with my friends. i'm sure it's gonna be exciting, hope the sea will be just calm and smooth so that we don't get sea sick and start to pollute the sea. It's a trip out to South China sea. Gng to conquer a little isles at the heart of south china sea. Guess i'll just more picture to explain the beautiful paradise.

As for him, i hope he'll do well this sem, just like next sem. However, i hope he has less problems and a smoother journey this sem, and hopefully he come home soon.

tat's all folks. take care~

life is just so simple

i love you too... hope you are doing well over there.

happy holidays!

the 2006

finally a year had gone passed.
i had listed my new year resolution:
1) concentrate fully on my studies.
2) i hope to spend more time with my family
3) i wish everyone's health to be pink
4) i wish to discover my hidden self
5) i hope to maintain this long term relationship

anyway year 2005 had passed so excitingly, and i guess it's been the year that i had travelled the most.Let's recap.
the happiest moment i had in 2005: i guess it would be when i celebrated my birthday with him and of course the time we spent alone in brisbane.(an unforgettable memory that's still fresh in my mind)
the most reliving moment in 2005: that's definitely after i receive my A's result.then it's when i got into my dream course (Occupational Therapy)
the most self fulfiling moment in 2005: i successfully pursuaded my parents for their approval to let me travel on my own.
the saddest moment in 2005: the moment at the airport on the 12th of July. the very moment that he entered that departure gate.
the stupidest thing i did in 2005: there's too many to list. but i guess it would be to let him go that night.
the biggest achievement i had in 2005: i passed my sem1 fairly well and i would definitely wanna do better this sem.
the biggest dilemma in 2005: to further my studies in aust or locally. but i chose this place, coz this is where i grew up from. this is where my supports are. this is where i think i can study happily.
the last movie i watched in 2005: Harry Potter
the last of the last in 2005: the last MHMB band concert. I just miss that bunch of pple. i just miss the conductor. i just miss the smell of that room.i just miss everything that we did together.

tell me this coming year is going to be more ups and downs. prepare me for the worst to come. pray for everyone and me that we can have a happy ending.

It's all god's plan. I hope mine is a smooth journey with the minimal hurdles.
I had a hard time in 2005. i had a hard time trying my best to let it go. i had tried my best to stand by myself. i think i had did it!
Year 2006, way to go!

all i want for christmas is you..

i can feel it coming.that bad omen..

blogging on christmas night makes me feel all alone again.

although i spent a day with him, i don't feel his presence.

although i got to see him the whole day, i felt that i only see him for a few hours.

where had he gone..

shakespears once said, life is nothing but a dream, a play on the stage.

We are all actors of our life, we can be the director of our life too, issit it?

This is a christmas which i hope never comes, or should i say that i hope it'll be over in the next minute. It was a christmas that i nv looked forward too...

some one asked if the feeling had fade, i really dunno how to answer that question. i had been asking myself tat same qn, but i still can't find the answer...

Things just seem to be changing,for the better or for the worse...

i can't find myself..

i'm leaving a question mark here.. can someone fill it in for me.

i'm tired of my style of living, it's getting draggy and torturous.

Merry X'mas to all my friends, and i wish you all happy and merry always.

2 wks of sch.

HectiC is all i can Say...
This is my Simple Plan..

LLD PBL presentation - to be completed by 16Nov.(tentative)
Research Method Project - ?? (haven't started at all yet)
Lower Limb Anatomy Practical Test - Wk 7 (must start memorising this weekend)
Physiology ICA test - Wk 8 ( just pay attention to param)
Communication Project - ?? (haven't started at all yet)

Alot of required reading to do, must find out more about orthopaedic and OT stuff to prepare for Clinicals.

Must draw up Clinical Learning Objective. Must start now. I don't know where to start. How?

Totally Lost now..

I just miss those moments.

i'm really going home this time

Time just flies... do they have wings?

Another week had passed,this sat,i'm really gng to leave on the jet plane, away frm this land of his and mine,back to the lonely island and back to my life of studying.

It's not that i hate going back to school,in fact i'm looking forward to monday when school starts,when i have to wait for another 15mins before hannah appears in front of me late again.

but i hate to leave this place(or our paradise),hate to leave him alone,hate to leave him so faraway that i can't hug him to cry again.

I just hope that my another week of stay had helped him in many ways,accompanying him to lectures and tutorial was interesting,at the same time,it exercises my brain too,so i'm not so slow and retarded when sch begins again.Accompanying him ard to search for material for his project was fun and not tiring at all.Seeing him progress in his project,and coming to a completion of his project gave myself a weird sense of achievement,which i can't describe that feeling either..it's just that weird feeling.

Although i can't stay any longer to see him thru his exams,i will still be supporting him from faraway and awaiting for him to return home to be by myside too.

My stay here had made me realised that he's a changed person now,not as optimistic as before,but overall he's become a better man.Just learnt to see this is a darker angle,maybe it's just me,coz i am not forced into such environment like he is now,so i'm not able to stand in his viewpoint at times.

This week we explored more places and even had chance to hop onto the train system of Brisbane.Thinking that it's not so backwards here,i just i was alittle wrong. All PA systems are manually operated,not pre-recorded okie,just like u are boarding a plane.Then u think the door should open on its own,but nope,u got to pull the lever of the door to get in if no one alight frm that cabin.how cool can that be... i din even noe till my fren told me abt that.

at the train station of chinatown.

I'm Going home tomorrow.bye.

The feeling is back.

Just as everything ''seems'' fine,and fitting in nicely again,it's almost time for us to part again.
We thought we will be able to take it lightly,but we just can't bear to part again.It's so painful..

Seeing him cry infront of me everynight pinches my heart,the pain pierces through me and blood oozed out from everywhere.That is the only thing to describe me now.

He said,'Can you don't go back?'

Although i replied practically that i Can't,but how i wish i can...

How i wish i can vanish into the thin air and surround you all the thing,watch of you and bless you.

It might have been a mistake in the first place for me to be here.Obviously,my presence had not make you become better,and worse of all,you seem to be more and more tensed up.

Since the day i'm here,i never see you smile,i only wipe your tears for you.Every trip out seems enjoyable and fun,but deep in my heart,i know jolly well that you are not enjoying yourself at all.I can't capture your smile in any photograph,not a moment in the time we spent together.Had i brought you more misery than joy?

Maybe only after i leave this place,then you can be happy and be yourself again.Maybe i had tried too hard to change who you are,but i really hate this you...

i don't know what i can do.i just hope you can talk to me and share with me your problems.I'll be leaving soon,i hope we can seize this opportunity tat we are together.

"You gotta learn to laugh, it's the way to true love."

story bridge in Brisbane

Look at how magnificient this bridge is..it just blows me off...

Another look of the Story bridge.Somehow it just reminds me of a small london bridge.haha

Streets Beach,South Bank

This is where i wanna go later.i hope i can make it there.. hahah

Signing off.. good night

My trip to Indooroopilly

Currency Conversion:

AUS$1.00 = S$1.39

today i travelled to indooroopilly shopping centre on my own.This is the first time since i came over,taking a bus(public transport) on my own without him by myside and gng to somewhere i nv been and seen before.

But the whole journey to and back was so exciting.

the journey started out frm Uni of Queensland,and end at the doorstep of Indooroopilly shopping centre.

The night before i checked online the bus route to take.So today,i acc him to the uni,and while he was busy in the lab,i made my trip to indooroopilly SC and explored tat place all by myself.

ok, so at ard 1.30pm,i hopped onto bus 428 at Uni of Queensland bus stop A,and i doubled confirm with the bus driver tat that is the bus which i'm suppose to get on,(just incase the info in the net is not accurate).ok, so i sat by myself,listening to my mp3 on the way there,and keeping a lookout of the road names, to assure myself again that i'm on the right track.okie,cool.saw many different patterns of houses on my way to indooroopilly.

'coz the stop tat i'm suppose to get off at is a interchange,so it was easy for me, i just got to follow everyone and alight at that stop.

okie when i first step into the SC,i remember the shop tat i first saw(banks,and food court)so that i'll be able to get back to the same spot to get the bus back to Uni of Queensland.

So systematically i explored indooroopillySC,there were abt 4 levels and many boutique there.So i bought sweets,erm,a blouse which is below AUS$20,i mean tat whole shop sells everything below AUS$20.Then i shopped ard,and soon it was abt 5pm le,shops are abt to close,(tat's the bad thing abt touring aussie,shop close early).Anyway so i trace back my track and went back to the bus interchange,got onto 428 which goes back to Uni of Queensland to meet him.

The trip back was only abt 20mins,knowing tat he'll still be busy at the lab,i explored the uni on my own,and luckily for my streetwise,i found my way to the lab,looking thru the window,i saw him working conscienously on his project,so i dint wanna disturb him or make him stop his work halfway just to acc me.So i went to the nearby lake for a walk by myself.Looking at the cranes and birds at the lake,the carefree-ness of these little creature,i could feel what the lonely soul of him is gng thru.but i can only be here temporarily to unload his unhappiness.Soon we will be parted again,but i hope this time it'll be better for the both of us.I can't imagine how it'll be like,and i dont dare to imagine too.i'll let nature take its course and see how things are gng to be after tat.For now i just wanna help him as much as i can,to help him feel better,and hopefully he knows tat i'll always be there for him, no matter now or later, in aus or back in Singapore.

oh yar, because i knw he's facing alot of problems lately,and i also dunno when i became so superstitious,i bought him a tailsmen(frm the ancient egypt) for obstacles of life,and hopefully tat will guide him, and protect him thru.I just hope for the better and i wish him good luck.

Anyway it is late night in CITY today,so we went to city for dinner and just to relax himself.now back in his room,working very hard on his project again,and because i knw nuts abt electricity,i can only sit beside him and look at what he's doing.i dunno if tat is considered helping anot.haha.

I had Donut King today

Today i had Donut King for Lunch, it's kinda like dunkin' donut in malaysia, but this one come in many shapes and sizes,we also went to supermart to get stuff to cook for tuesday dinner.Although we only went out for a short while,but i guess it's relaxing ba.Anyway then we found this place where we can take see the brisbane river.so we took a few photos there on our way hm.haha.

signing out.buaiz

I'm in Brisbane now.

I had flown in a plane for 6.5hrs frm singapore all the way to brisbane to meet him.Although the journey here was tough,but when i finally met him later in the morning everything seem worthwhile.
On the plane, i was sitting between 2 ang mohs, one can't slp and the other slping like a pig(snoring somemore). So like u have expected, i can't slp too.Luckily, this small little screen infront of me accompanied me thru my journey.I ate the most disgusting supper(Baked salmon with mashed potatoes) and proceed to watch the latest in house movie,the longest Yard.I would say the movie was good.Then after that show, i watch Mr and Mrs Jones by Bratt pitt and Angelina Jones.Erm, i guess these are the most expensive movie i'll be catching this yr ba.Anyway after tat i wanted to watch CSI which Qantas preview too, but i guess i'll surely fall aslp after tat, so i watched something comedy called the The Britan.I was suppose to laugh but the joke was too cold and too lame that i can't laugh man. Anyway then i still couldn't slp coz the plane is too dry, and i feel that my nose is gng to drop off soon, so i requested for many cups of ice water.And also because the guy beside me keep gng up and down the seat, i knw i have many opportunity to go to the toilet.haha..
Soon, after playing a few games on nintendo, i was abt to fall aslp, then they say it's breakfast time.Haha.. The Breakfast was super lousy.They only provided a crossiant with Raisins (cold and chewy), and a cup of tea lo. then shortly we embarked at Brisbane International Airport and my senior was there to recep me, so i wasn't a lost sheep.Luckily, she's free in that morning,or i'll have to flag a cab back to his place.
Anyway, we didn't really plan where to go,so most of the time we went shopping,in city and at a suburb shopping center Toowong.And today we went to Sch sport to play badminton with 2 other frens.Had alot of fun,but after tat he felt he nv study much today,so now we are in his room studying now.while i'm here blogging and acc him.
Leaving you with some of the photos tat we took yesterday at brisbane river and At Queen St Mall.

where am i nw?

i think every1 is as eager as me to knw whether i pass my driving test right,okie, i flunt it.it was horrible,i tot i was okie actually.but anyway,it doesn't really matter to me whether i pass at which attempt.Anyway for ur info,it's only my first attempt.

As many should know by nw,i'm flying off in another 5 days time.This time,it's a tour and holiday break for me.An expensive one,but anyway i'll be on my own.I mean really on my own,without a tour group,without my friends with me,until i touch down in aust.Till now, i still have no regrets of making the decision of going over.Everytime when i need him by his side,he's always there for me,knowing him well enough(although only he can tell me whether i knw him well),this time round,it should be by turn to be by his side when he needs me. Since we were together, he never requested me to do anything for him, he nv expects me to sacrify anything for him.So i feel that this time, i should really do something for him.

From this experience of his, i really see that to be independent is really very difficult,and no one can be an individual in this world,that's why i always think friendster had made itself significant.We need each other's support and encouragement to survive in this cruel reality.Without him by my side this 2 years, i really can't image what i'll be like now.Somehow, i always say i won't change because of him,but i believe many of you who read this will know that i'm a changed person now.The tom boyish in me is almost gone, and the most drastic change is I'm not as strong as i used to be.Telling others that i can be independent without him ard is a lie, without him,i realised how much he had helped me this 2 yrs.Make me realise how dependent i'm on him.

Looking forward to seeing him next thursday morning.I'm trying to imagine our first reaction,will it be a hug?or tears all over our cheeks?or nothing at all?i'm really not sure.i don't dare to ask him, i don't dare to disturb him, i don't even dare to talk to him this few days,coz everytime we talk, he cries to me.Hearing him crying out his heart,pinches my heart too..It is a suffering to him, as well as to me.Although i try my best to comfort him.i always fail.I guess that's why his turning to his dad now.I'm such a useless girlfriend,can't offer him the love and care that he need from me.i'm writing all this up here,i guess coz i got no one to turn to..

Luckily i still have a buddy with me who is always ready to hear me out when i need.Thanks for asking me out on wednesday,just to relax ourselves and to catch up with each other again.Next week u'll be doing your SISPEC recourse,so i wish you all the best.I'll be away for a while, don't miss me too much.And hopefully u can hop over to OCS k!

I'm a lost sheep nw,waiting for god's guidance.I need to see that light again.Absence makes the heart fonder, then maybe that fonder heart will subside after a peak.
Today he shared this with me,given to him by his little cousin.It says ''Forever Love'',will it really be forever love? I don't know.I'm so lost,i hate this feeling... god!help Me....

Results oh results.

wEeh.. i tot i can't fall slp last night. but i was really damn tired frm the walking ard town, so i fall aslp almost immediately.As usual, my dear always feel lousy after his paper, so i had to comfort him.i talked him out, hoping there he will feel better after that.but even till this morning he still tells me he got that lousy feeling abt himself. anyway i can see that uni life i really stressful, when u are all alone overseas, and your teammates are not co-operative, and yet you are still having alot of problem with the project. haiz, i think that's the worst senario anyone can come to right?
Wadever it is i hope he'll be ok soon..and hope he can hang in there, coz in just 1 more week, i'll be there to acc him le.Although it is temporary, but i still hope it will help him.
This morning, i can finally review my results frm the e-service. Okie, and this is how it goes.
Frm the very end of the exams, i keep telling myself as long as there is no Sub, it doesn't matter what shitty grades i get. As long as there is no subs. I pray to god everyday hoping that i'll be happy on the day i receive my grades.
Okie, then just before i woke up, i don't know what kind of brainwave was that, but i had a dream.Haha. and i dream tat i'm the only one in the class to receive a Distinction!! wow. so proud. then i woke up, haha it was only in my dream. Maybe the msg frm god was, hey dream on girl.. u think u so good.
Okie, so i turn on the comp eagerly to knw my results.then i had this



yup, so tat's exactly the same thing that i see. Okie problem is i should be happy right.coz my prayer is answered, and i should thank god.but somehow, i'm abit greedy here.
i'm starting to question myself, did i really work hard enough? erm, do i deserve better great than this? erm, should i have done this and done tat.. haiz.
okok i guess human being human, always expect more that what is given.I mean the more more the merrier right.But is that right? i also don't knw.
But i kinda had come to a conclusion, i should be happy, and satisfied with what i've got, coz this is the result of my hard work.
I must always bear this in mind, i'm not smart, i'm purely hardworking.
So don't blame ourselves for not having a high voltage brain power, but we have a powerful determination, and i guess that is more important. The determination to do well, will definitely rule out those who are smart by nature, but lazy and lack of determination.
Having said enough, i shall stop here.
I'm flying off to Brisbane to be with my dear in 1 wks time.So dear, hang on k.

Today is your birthday, i guess it's lonely and boring ba.

this is specially arranged for you.Hope you'll like it. Sorry i can't be there with you today to spend your birthday with you, neither am i home to 'acc' you while you are working hard alone over there.But all the hard work will be paid off, that's what we always believe right.Too suffer nw, means we can enjoy later.I'll be joining you soon, in just abt a weeks time, hope you can endure abit more.I'm as excited as you are abt my trip over to brisbane. But for now, i still have something else to worry abt... so yups, all the best for your tml paper okie. Last one to go. Good Luck. I miss you everyday.

busy busy september??

hi all,

Yeah finally exams over,but result will only be released on the 15th Sept,and of coz, hope everything goes smooth,as long as I don't have to take sub-paper,i'll be happy le.

Let's see what i'm doing since holiday started..

On the 29th Aug, Went to sentosa for Attacks of The Otties,a get together with the yr 1 and yr 2.Had lotsa fun, actually it's like amazing race,but then erm, some cock up here and there,but overall great job to the yr 2 coz they are the one who made this outing possible..And the biggest joke of the day was, no one expected me to be the last to arrive,yet i'm the last!! haha..

On the 30th to 1Sept, I spent my day at Pasir Ris chalet with my class.. Thanks to elaine who booked that big bungalow,which i tot was quite scary on the first nite,coz i had to spent my night in that big room with eunice only.But great mahjong session too.Haven't touch the tiles since erm, dont know when.. but that 2 days i think i touch enough tiles le. Oh, preparing for the bbq, and the shopping trip with abi and wanying, plotting wanying all the way to make her decided on something was kinda tiring too..keke.. But overall the bbq was great,and thanks joseph for that special performance(magic aka con show),i think the class had lotsa fun...


Oh, and not forgetting that salivating cheesecake by josephine and elaine.Keke..

After that chalet, you are pratically too exhausted to do anything, everybodies drag their dead body home and slept thru the day i guess..

On 2nd Sept, I proceed for my first driving revision lesson.It was erm, how should i put it? horrible? okie lor? or what.. anyway i guess the 3 conductors are really confusing me up now,and i guess the rest of my revision lesson,i'll just be driving my own style ba.If i gng to fail the test also nvm,doesn't really matter for me,but of coz everyone hope to pass the first time right.So i'll just try my best keke. Nothing interesting in driving lesson,coz the instructor sucks, eat my money, waste my time, half way thru ask me to pull over for him to go toilet, still blame say i too jerky.What's his bloody problem.Nvm, if i pass first time, i'll complain him until siao.haha..

On weekend, supposed to be spent at home, but somehow i think i went out with my parents to town, walk ard, eat lunch in maxwell market,long time nv go there liao. But we had all the delicacy there. so i think i'm growing fat...

Then another week started again, I volunteered to help abi out at the MCYC student care centre. Haha , believe it out or, a pri 4 kid can tell me, 'you are very Lame!'So stunned by his words, i said,''Lame means cannot walk''.. hahha.. can't believe it.Frm that visit, it reminds me of my JC days, when my class volunteered to take care of a bunch of kids for a day, and even invited them to SA and had games with them.Fun, yet tiring, coz some kids just don't co-operate and gives you attitude problem.Same thing at the centre,they are just pri sch kids, and yet they use vulgur language free flowingly (if there is such term).. u know what i mean..But i had lotsa fun teaching this kid chinese spelling.Then i ask him when is his spelling test, he said he don't know,so i say isn't it silly to study so early, coz a few days later,you'll forget all the words again le,I mean it's true right, i always study spelling just before i go for it, so that it's all fresh in my head. haha..Then he told me not to curse him.keke.. i tot i'm just being frank.Anyway, wadever...

tuesday i went for driving lesson again, so that i can go help the kids to fly kite at West Coast Park today. tuesday lesson equally sian, so i don't wanna talk abt it le.. Oh yar, i went swimming under that bloody hot sun on monday afternoon, and leave me with that ugly tanline.yucks!! but hack lar,who cares. So after lesson, i wanted to wait for my mom to finish work, but it's too much a chore, so i roam ard west mall and IMM. in the end i got myself some clothes and some presents too.Ok then i was thinking what should i get for my bf,who will be spending his birthday alone,and somemore the next day got exam.Hope miserable right,haiz but no choice lar.So i walked and walked but din't see anything in mind.So i went home not getting anything for him.

So wednesday, nothing to do, decided to start running, and since then i have been running everyday.Running ard the estate can be quite fun too, go ard seeing new houses that had been rebuilt,and run ard the park with kids kicking soccer on the field.remind me of my childhood days.

Today i had a great time at West Coast Park with Abi, and all the kids.I mean, although the kites just can't fly no matter how hard we tried,or no.. i should say the children tried. and then in the end they all like quite sian diao, then play ball game, lastly go playground.But i guess the best part for them is the food.. Mchicken burger.haha.

Had alot of thoughts this week,maybe because he is feeling very depressed and miserable over there too.I don't know what else i can do for him already,other than just sitting down here and listen to him.I tot i'm understanding enough of his situation,i tot i gave him enough opinions to consider, but things doesn't seem to be getting better.But i only seem to lose him more and more each day.I guess they are right, study overseas makes u see alot of things, and change u into another person too..But they nv say whether it's better or for the worst. haha.. but gng overseas in the end make a person lose his confidence and interest in other things in life, is that a good thing or a bad thing.i also don't know what to say le.

Anyway i had to be much stronger than him now,so that only i have to worry for him and not having him to worry for me.As he thinks that i'm enjoying my hols here, actually i'm trying very hard to understand his stats too, so that somehow i can help him alittle.but that bloody stats is really difficult.so different frm what i have in my math notes.but i'm sourcing out.So anyone who have knowledge of stats for engineering can share with me.I hope he gets better each day, but everyday our conversation get repeated again and again, our topics nv leave that misery,tell me how am i suppose to help him, i'm getting miserable too.haha(fake laugh)

Anyway in another 2 more weeks i'll be out of town, i guess you all can deduce where i'll be.Yar, i'm flying over to meet him, to shower my love on him, and of coz hopefully to make him more at ease over there..After so long, he still can't settle down, then there is really something wrong.so my this visit is to go find out more why he's not ok.and try to cure him.I pray that he can do well for his papers and of coz after tat all his project will be smooth sailing le. No more hiccups, no more hurdles equals no more worries.

take care pple.i'll be back on the 8th Oct.Till then, see you.

Two more weeks to a well deserved break

time really past fast, it's coming to an end of a semestral, looking aback at the first time i met my classmates..haha.what a joke.anyway, i'll be having my exams in the coming 2 weeks, and after that i'll be having my semestral break for 1.5months.Wohaha...

Kenrick had left singapore for a month le,although we try to talk to each other everyday,but i still miss him alot.The feeling of being apart is torturous,when i thought i can go through it, when i thought i'll be strong, but it's really difficult. Time does pass fast looking back at it now,but when i was in that shit, time was slower than snail's crawling i would say.

Anyway now i'm putting all my mind into my exams, of coz i hope to do well, and i'm telling myself that i would.haha. i will try not to be distracted, but some of you will knw it's impossible coz i'll still think of him.haha..

Whatever it is, nothing special or big is happening in my life,just plainly preparing for exams... okok.. Take care friends