kenrick is a mugger

My Mugger Boy!
Jiayou!
counting down another 4 days!
I'll pick you up at Changi Terminal 2 ok?

missing you..

I need inspiration for my creativity and counselling..
I want creativity for my creativity..
i want counselling for my counselling..
haha.
came out with a conclusion with zhenzhen, because our mother
are called the same name, tat's why we both have double names..
huihui & zhenzhen, and her sister is called, peipei.
wad a jokE!

Holiday is not coming! Hell is...

Just missing you

I'm Missing You!

It's raining cats and dogs early in the morning at 8am. I got up to realise i forgot to set my alarm clock.. everything is starting to not go right. Then i realise i'm gng to sch later at 10.which means i only left with 2 hrs to revise my work.
But it started raining cats and dogs, not tat i don't like rainy days when i was just complaining that the weather is so humid last night tat it made me restless.. but then i don't like to drive in rainy days.So ma fan, especially when the aircon is not working so well. oh dear.i can see trouble coming.
Anyway, he finish his first paper yesterday, first thing he told me was "no hope".. How pessimistic can you get my dear.. and continue to say he only know how to solve it when he walks out of the exam hall..oh dear. can you tell me what's wrong? too stress? mental block?
Anyway i think we should just concentrate on the other 2 papers, as long as you tried your best already. There is no regrets even the results didn't turn out to be excellent. But i know you'll still pull thru coz you are such a lucky chap. God's with you as long as you pray to him.
Can't wait for you to return in exactly a wk's time and we can be off to Batam. I hope it doesn't rain cats and dogs in Batam too, coz i dun wann be stuck in the shelter.. i want the sun to relax and shower me with warmth.. and with you around, i'm such a fortunate girl.. I wanna go soak in the sun,and enjoy cable skiing, parasailing, and even bungee jumping if you dare. I wanna do all the ACTION there if i can. Although it's just one night out, i think it's enough to just let me recharge and get ready for the next term.
Really feel burned out this hols. Having some activities almost everyday, can't really settle down to do my work too. and now, i'm blogging.. wad the hell.. i just miss JC or Secondary sch hols when i can just go band and band everyday. and leave my work and revision to last min or late at night and i'll still feel full of energy to study.. but now, as sun goes down, my morale and energy goes down with the sun. Especially now that there's no sun, my energy is not up too.. oh dear... i only have one more wk to complete so many things.. i don't have time.
I just wish every hols i can be there with you, with this rainy feeling, i just miss you even more. I wish we can be next to each other and give each other warmth. Looking at all the past photos that we took together, i just wanna cry it out and cry to my eyes swell so that you can come back to me.. but it's not going to work. I know i have to complete my work by 1 wks time, but the intrinsic motivation is not there yet. How??
Someone pls push me, and ask me to wake up!

my daddy

This man is my dad... usually i don't talk about him, because he's just too good. But seriously he needs some credit too. Without him, i really dunno who can handle the devil and demons in me and my sibilings.
My daddy is a man who doesn't like pple to flatter him, so whenever pple praise him, he will say it's not his effort alone and will say other does more than he did..
He is a hardworking, although he doesn't work 2 jobs, but he treat his job seriously. Although he is not working under pple noses, but he bring himselves down to his workers and behave just like one. He is always there for his workers and will help them as much as possible.
To the Family, he tries to give his best and be there whenever he can. Recently, he tries to spend more time with the family but he still spend more time at work. He is tanned, and often mistaken as a blangadesh. His degree of tan is how much time he spend working under the hot sun, earning bucks for the family.
He's a good man, he tries to listen to us, gives us the freedom to make decision and make us think about what is right or wrong. He discipline us like little kids, but tries very hard to treat us as adult now. But he told us, no matter what age you are, in my eyes, you will always be my children. even until the age of 50, if i'm still around, you are still children in my eyes. He might sound really protective over us. but the hidden meaning in those words are, he loves us for no matter who we are.
I thank him for trying to understand us so well.and finally accepting and being proud of me to be in this Occupational Therapy course. Thank you for not objecting my choice anymore. Thank you for recognising that this path that i had chosen will be a bright future. and thank you for listening and helping me whenever i'm in trouble. I'll never forget those times when you teach me how to park the car and the times when you'll do art work with me, and come into my room just to check on me, to make sure that i'm fine and breathing(heheh). I know you care, you just don't say it out loud that you care.
I love you daddy..
Happy Fathers' Day.

 

Occ as therapy at Fort Canning

It took place yesterday.. no time to put up the photos. but will do it really soon! so stay tune~ haha

Yue Ding - Guang Liang


Listen to that story.. Tells a tale of a lover, who had a pact to meet together after 3 years of seperation.But then later things didn't turn out right at the 3rd year when they suppose to meet...

Is long distance relationship so vulnearable?Can a lover really not stay together if they are seperated.. I read on 'Shape' magazine and there was this small article that physical intimacy is important in a relationship! oh pls.. didn't you also hear that absence makes the heart grow fonder?

Anyway no matter a relationships works out or not it depends on not just physical intimacy. it's the trust, the faith and the support that you give one another.

i felt that that story was alittle similar to mine, except tat we do see each other in between those 2 yrs. so life is not as made. And soon after his return,it'll be my turn to leave this place. Looks like god is trying to make fun of us, but i believe love is still strong enough to withstand all trials and temptations.. that is what i mean by true love.

Somehow, trials and temptations also make love stronger at the same time. wad a reciprocal relationships.. they just can't do without one another.

I wish all lovers (whether short or long distance) all the best, and learn to cherish one another starting from now, not only when you lost them.

My friend said, she's happy being a single, but also misses the being loved times when she sees and hears lovely couples around them.. I got no comment, but i believe no one lives on this planet alone. So even if you are single, you still have your partner( might not be your lover,but a really gd friend or family member with you) so god never make us feel alone!

Friends ? what is the definition?

A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO SEES YOU THROUGH THE GOOD TIMES AND THE BAD. A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO MAKES YOU HAPPY AND IS THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU'RE SAD.

The LORD Jesus Christ gave us the definition of a true friend in John. "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. Ye are my friends, if ye do whatsoever I command you. Henceforth I call you not servants; for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth: but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you" (John 15:13-15). Jesus is the pure example of a true friend for He laid down His life for His "friends." What is more, "who so ever will" may become His friend by trusting in Him as their personal savior, being born again and receiving new life in Him.

Jesus also gave a parable concerning friendship in Luke. "And he said unto them, Which of you shall have a friend, and shall go unto him at midnight, and say unto him, Friend, lend me three loaves; For a friend of mine in his journey is come to me, and I have nothing to set before him? And he from within shall answer and say, Trouble me not: the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed; I cannot rise and give thee. I say unto you, Though he will not rise and give him, because he is his friend, yet because of his importunity he will rise and give him as many as he needeth. And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you. For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened" (Luke 11:5-10).

In other words not even friendship could move this person to open the door in the middle of the night but the "importunity" or the persistence of the knocker persuaded the friend to open to him. The lesson here is that some times human friendships have their limitations and that persistence reaps benefits.

There is an example of true friendship between David and Saul's son Jonathon, who in spite of his father Saul's pursuit of David and attempts to kill him, stood by his friend. You will find that story in 1 Samuel chapter 18 through chapter 20. Some pertinent passages are 1 Samuel 18:1-4; 19: 4-7; 20:11-17, 41-42.

Proverbs is another good source of wisdom regarding friends. "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity" (Proverbs 17:17). "A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother" (Proverbs 18:24). The issue here is that in order have a friend one must be a friend. "Faithful are the wounds of a friend; but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful" (Proverbs 27:6). "Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend" (Proverbs 27:17).

I am also reminded of the principle found in Amos. "Can two walk together, except they be agreed" (Amos 3:3). Friends are of like mind. The truth that comes from all of this is that friendship is that relationship that is entered into by individuals and it is only as good or as close as those individuals choose to make it. Some one has said that if you can count your true friends on the fingers of one hand, you are blessed. A friend is one whom you can be yourself with and never fear that they will judge you. A friend is someone that you can confide in with complete trust. A friend is someone you respect and that respects you, not based upon worthiness but based upon a likeness of mind.

Finally, I must return to the real definition of a true friend. "For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:7-8). "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends" (John 15:13). Now, that is true friendship!

weeeee

Haha.. this is dedicated to nengjie.. not my lover, but my really gd friend. Since primary Sch.. had supper with him just now, coz he's going to tekong on sat liao.. so must treat him to a gd meal. but end up i was the old one eating, the rest of them were just drinking sugar cane juice. So more photos to come. but meanwhile, all the best to my this pri sch buddy! take care in tekong, don't let the flies and mosquitoes attack you! haha..

i'll post more photos when i'm free.

Friends

垃圾车 - MAYDAY



a song sung by a taiwaneise band. Rubbish Truck. The song tells a story of a guy to his friends that because of his friends, he's nv lonely again, and everytime they are happy or sad, they will share with him, just as described as a rubbish truck that will bring all your sorrows away.. so friends, this song is dedicated to all of you. Thanks for being my friend.

P.S. the song is sung in hokkien.

a day with my uncle

today i had to accompany my uncle to the hospital for checkup, so i missed physio class(hope my friend will help me along). anyway i spent the whole day there, starting from 10am till 6pm that i left that place. it was a day of happiness and yet painful too.
First we visited the endocrinologist and he told us the latest findings that he had found. Firstly, he told us that the phosphate level in my uncle's body had returned to the norm(something that we are very happy about) and also this means that some of the symptoms are going off slowly. Then he reviewed to us the MRI scan findings, and they found a tumor in the nasal cavity!!!
tension built up within me as i bited my teeth tightly to see what he says next.
phew.... he didn't say what characteristic the tumour is. to me is a gd news coz i can't take too many shocking news in a day you know. anyway we were further referred on to a ENT(EAR, NOSE, and THROAT) surgeon. We did a biospy of the tumour to test for the characteristic of it. and then after that we will proceed to the surgery and after the surgery things should hopefully be back to normal again. Anyway i'm happy with the registrar, he was a nice guy, he read alot, practise evidence-based practice. What make me really impressed with him was that, he sent us off for lunch while he prepares for a memo to refer us on to the next ENT surgeon. He takes his time and prepares the memo carefully ok.. i mean how many doctors or specialist will do that? So i'm really happy with him. Then when i tot we'll be scheduled to see the ENT surgeon only sometime later, but my uncle called me to say we had to stay longer coz he's gng to see the ENT surgeon in the afternoon. wow wasn't the service like EXPRESS.. you'll never expect this kind of express service given to you, especially if you are under government subsidy man.But anyway i'm happy with the arrangement, so we immediately went to see the ENT surgeon and did a biopsy. This is when the painful part of the day hit me. When i saw the tube inserting into my uncle's nasal, that moment the blood just gush out of the nostrils.. i know it was painful. the look on my maid's face was totally disgusted.. and she had to leave the room coz she couldn't stand another second seeing it. So being supportive as i can, i stayed by my uncle's side and suffer the pain with him. Coz the blood continued to bleed, we had to wait for another 45 mins to make sure that the blood clots and that he's safe to return home, if not he'll have to stay in for a few day's of observation. and my poor uncle and to pinch his nose tight to stop the wound from bleeding. Anyway while waiting, my poor uncle sneezed a few time, and blood starts to flow out of the nostrils again like a river flowing downstream.. i saw that painful look and unbearable disappointment and tiredness on his face, i got the urge to go forward and give him a hug. wad stopped me was the blood.. so i pat him on the shoulder, assuring him that he'll be fine and i told him i'll try my best to help him whenever possible. I hope i can take off some of his sufferings, i hope i can share that pain with him. Later when the ENT surgeon was exaiming the wound thru the endoscope, i was there beside my uncle, you know the pain of squeezing a small tube thru your nostril, you just feel nausea and uncomfortable. I saw his temporalis contracting as he tried to bear on with the pain, and i saw his masticatory muscles contract, i contracted my masticatory muscles as well.. i felt the pain going thru my nose too..
It was a relieve when the doctor told me that he is able to go home and rest.Thank god for answering my prayer.But if anything in the night that the nose starts to bleed thru the clot, i had to send him back to A n E immediately. So pple, pls pray for us.
My aunty was really worried when i picked up her call just now.She just left this morning to malaysia for a christian convention, although i could see that she didn't really leave with a peace of mind, but i know she just wanted to please my uncle coz he insisted that she goes for the trip. Anyway i might be young and small in her eyes, but i think i can do a great job taking care of my uncle.so pls don't worry, just pray for us.
Finally it was time to hit back home. On the road when i was driving, there were a lot of barger... as if the road own by them.
First i was trying to land change, and i and shined my signal light ok. this stupid red car just refuse to let me thru. and horn at me. and he horn at me again when he had already stopped his car for me to go. and when i moved, he moved as well.. WTF.... then i saw another barger trying to bully a small car and then so surprisingly, when they seperated quite far away, i was following behind that small car and he stretched his hand out of the window and pointed that obsence finger at that barger.. i was wow!! but at that time i shocked my head too.. so disappointed with singaporeans.. is this wad you call world class!!.. haiz.
Anyway i was shopping in SGH while waiting for my uncle, i discovered a medibook store in SGH and there were student rate. So i got myself an neurology and nervous system book. Coz i am totally lost in param's class, especially when i miss 2 hours of lect and 1 hour of pract today..
i think i better stop typing and start hitting the books again.But before that, i think i need a nap.i'm really tired, physically and mentally..
oh yar, i'm so happy for my boyfriend today, it was his d-day aka demo-day for his team project. And i'm so glad god answered another of my prayer. his product was working fine and he scored 54/50,i.e. he earned 4 bonus point.so he had pocketed a distinction again this sem. I guess his lifeless in brisbane is all worth it after all. i hope he does better and better.. but shit, tat means it's more pressure for me!! damn it. See what i am like when i'm tired, i start swearing. i shall stop.BYE..

Something from my bible reading today..

We ought always to thank God for you, brothers, and rightly so, because your faith is growing more and more, and the love every on of you has for each other is increasing.

Therefore, among God's churches we boast about your perseverance and faith in all the persecutions and trails you are enduring.

All this is evidence that God's judgement is right, and as a result you will be counted worthy of the kingdom of God, for which you are suffering. God is just: He will pay back trouble to those who trouble you and give relief to you who are troubled, and to us as well.

This happen when the Lord Jesus is revealed from heaven in blazing fire with his powerful angels.

He will punish those who do not know God and do not obey the the gospel of our Lord Jesus.

They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the majesty of his power on the day he comes to be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have believed.

This includes you, because you believed our testimony to you.

With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, the our God may count you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may fulfill every good purpose of yours and every act prompted by your faith. We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who eanestly seek him (Hebrews 11:6)

With faith and thanksgiving, we can please god. With faith and thanksgiving, god will find us worthy of his callings. So keep that faith and always be grateful and thankful of whatever we have.We must learn to cherish our love ones.

Another topic of LOVE

This is from the bible too.. read this and understand this during my quiet time.SO i shall share it with all of you..

If i speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If i have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledg, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of worngs. Love does not delight in evil,but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I think it's all so true. If i'm have not love, i'm nothing, and i had not gain anything.. So does the morale of the story asking us to fall in love? I guess it means to love god and to love your brothers and you family members.

So much about love. This wk had been a hectic wk, staying in sch almost every day since thursday. and this suddenly strike me this morning, i think since sch started. i had been back for 5 saturdays( today is wk 6 already). i.e. i only managed to stay at home on only 1 saturday since my class started. oh dear. to me weekend is really precious coz it's the only time for me to spend with my family and also to do my work. but really, today i kinda wasted the whole day, coz i came home and i slept for almost 2 hours. bUt i'm already feeling sleepy how... ok nvm, i shall stop here and hit back to the books. i must stay awake.

God's Love and Ours

ok, i know i shouldn't be blogging now.But i just wanna bring this msg to everyone who reads this. This was the passage that i read during Service yesterday and i tot i really makes me ponder if i'm faithful and truthful to god. So how it goes..

Dear Friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God.

Everyone who loves has been born of God and Knows God.

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is Love.

This is how God showed his love among us: He Sent his one and Only Son into the world that we might live through him

This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our Sins.

Dear friends, Since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.

No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in Us.

We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit.

And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Saviour of the World.

If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God.

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.

In this way, love is made complete among Us so that we will have confidence on the day of Judgement, because in this world we are like him.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.

The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

We love because he first loved Us.

If anyone says, 'I love God,' yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother,

whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.

And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his Brother.

Do i really love God, do i then really love my brother?

I wish there is no answer to this, coz god will answer me one day.

Really worried for my boy coz he's under alot of stress from his sch work.
Although i'll see him in no time( 4 wks) i'm still missing him alot, and always wondering how he's coping.

Really worried for everyone around me. Wondering if they are coping well..

my friend confided in me thru sms while i was returning from church. So for the past wk, The belief and faith in Christ had been in my head all the time. I missed church on mothers' day. Was it on purpose or was it a trial that god had put me thru. had i pass it or flunked it? i really dont know.

TOday my auntie confronted me about my faith and my belief again. I really don't know man.

i just feel that i need a break from this.

Even over lunch, the topic never leave that center of attention about faith and belief.

Must one christian adhere closely to all the commandments of God, if not one doesn't qualify to be God's believer.

ok, maybe that's why i never called myself a christian, coz i don't fully qualified to be one.

I don't follow every single commandment closely. For the very first rule , my loved ones are not believer of God.

Does that make me a sinner then? i'm questioning my own faith and belief now.

So just let me be ok. Don't force me into your own belief coz i really can't agree to that.

God pls help and guide me thru this.

Sch Sch Sch

Fifth Week of School

if you wan find any word to describe it, all I can say is 'Hectic'..

School life hasn't been easy for anyone, especially for us. We have like 3 sub-modules squeeze into 1 core module. And the sub modules itself is already very demanding..

Being taught for only 4wks and going for a Viva voce is not easy man. it's only 4 wks, and you have to apply everything tat you learn into tat 10-15mins of viva voce.. with that trembling voice and that echo-y room, the thoughts of it just make me shiver again..And it's going to be 15% of 1 core module. 10-15mins of work will determine your 15%percent. oh man, i'm not trying to be calculative here, but it's just too much to bear man.

can you imagine, having a viva voce in wk4, I was just warming up man...

Hurdles after hurdles... i'm still hanging there, with the support and guidance from god, I guess I can pull it thru again this semester, but what I want is to get better. but how to get better when I don't have time to do my own things but just trying to catch up with whatever I had missed out.. life is not easy as a 2nd yr student man..

but I must say, it was really interesting..

Self-maintanance module for cool.. way cool.. thinking of ways to adapt our dangerous environment to a safe one, with the cheapest material and the simplest gadget.. so cool.. And Magnus always telling us where her hidout and where she source for cheap gds.. I love this module man. anyway if I really work in community setting in future, I think this is one of the big area that I would wan venture into. using junk to create assistive device for the poor and needy. Wow..it's my dream ok.

then next is creativity.. haha for those who had clicked on my class blog OT0502 in my links, you would know tat we are having fun in class.. playing with clay.. I never knew tat my hands can be so good.. And also I went for phototaking around chinatown with my 2 classmates( coz we were inspired by Dewitt Jones, a photographer for national geography) we saw his video and his perception of things in this world.way cool man..And then today was puppetry.. haha n we had a plot to act out.so using my drawing talent, we decided to tell the story of the REDHILL.. And lastly, my project for creativity, I had many ideas, but decided on making paper marchie to do a piggy-bank model.Practical and therapeutic.i thinking of doing a slam dunk too.but see how la.

then come BIO-Sensorimotor. it's interesting coz we can to palpate and practice palpating on our classmates. Prerequisition: Wear Swimming costumme for every pract class..

haha.. no kidding. it'll be a 3 hr pract when my own class will be parading in swimming costumme. And touching eachother so openly and legally.. no one can charge me of molest during tat 3 hr man.

then it's mobility when I learn how to use the wheelchair, and then how to position my pt, how to help them get up of bed and doing transfer from wheelchair to bed and vice versa, and many other things tat get them to move around basically.. it's fun to me coz it's hands on.. And I like hands on stuff..

unlike...

NE..oh god, it's a totally waste of time. And yar your eyes are not playing trick on you, it's National Education(NE). it's 0 credit but 100% attendance is compulsory. Ok, the stupidest thing tat the lecturer threaten us with is tat we need tat NE cert to get to Local Uni, but I was like, ok, tell me tat again if there an OT degree in Singapore.. haiz.. she need to keep herself updated man.

then was Behavioral Modification. I hate it.cz lecturer is boring, with cannot make it sense of humor.then the examples tat she gave(usually with her children) makes me feel sorry for her children. can you imagine your mom know behavior mod so well tat she's subtling conditioning you everyday, and she has no worry that you'll find out one day,coz she believes tat you are under her control all the time.. oh tat's spooky man. I don't deny tat conditioning and behavior modification is in our daily life and happening to us all the time. but at least before I have this module, I didn't feel tat i'm being conditioned and being controlled.so tat's ok. haha... living with ignorant is good..

then Behavioral Science modules are ok. quite interesting something, not so some other time. but overall i'm enjoying it. especially basic counselling, so friend, you can always talk to me if you need to,i'll try to help you.. today we video recorded our counselling session with our friend( ok, only my group did it) and we had a great time analysis the video and assessing our own performance.. so at the end of all these sessions, we are suppose to write a reflective report and peer eval on how we fare in our skills of basic counselling. haha. cool man I can't wait.

Magnus said tat Vivo voce results will be posted out somewhere this wk. no one failed,but some did better than others.so i'm worried tat I didn't do so well.although didn't put in 110% effort, but I did my max tat I can do.

it's getting busy each wk.this wkend suppose to join class in soccer tournament.What a joke.but hope can win something small.. better than nothing right. haha..

ok physiology is in a mess now.better catch up with it soon,otherwise i'll die at the end of sem.

Doing on vision, hearing and vestibular system. But they all related and all so complicated.tat sometimes I really dont catch what param is saying. And param, being a In-dian. I had difficulties catching his pronounciation.words like Cerebrum and cerebellum.. haiz. And alot more... but he's sense of humor makes me try to keep awake as much as possible,so param is a good guy.

ok lastly, i'm missing SAJC and esp the band members, and MHMB too.. I bump into lily for the 2nd time today. reminds me of the days when i'll bump into her during break at the SAJC cafeteria(aka canteen)... got to know her thru huiqin, my slack together friend in SAJC (1st 3 mths).. oh dear, miss all tat crap.. And of coz peggy, jas tat group of band members. just met them at the last band concert and I wan go back to band, I wan join alumni, but my timing and committment really has not enough to go around. And august is my exam period,but the SAINTS family playing in Esplanade again, I wan play.. but no time, so maybe i'll be an audience this time.hope I got chance nxt time. but I think SAINT alumni trombone is strong enough too,don't need me..haha.but I still wan add in the noise..

So many things in mind to do,but really no time. like sitting here to blog, I already like wasted 10 mins.. I shall end. bye peeps.take care.

The philosophy of OT

Human should always engage in purposeful occupation, and purposeful occupation keeps one healthy and functioning phsically, mentally and socially.

曹格 Superwomen.. first heard this song on campus superstar.. i think it's really a nice song. the mv also tells a nice story.. i think he's not bad, and he's a malaysian. no particular offends tat he's a malaysian, just proud tat he's an asian born singer. Saw him on 100% Entertainment and he is dating mayi( the jap cute little girl). and he's so sweet to her,always singing for her. wondering if all these songs are written for her too.. haha

Today's mothers' day. skipped church, feeling bad. but i slept the whole night yesterday after coming home from dinner.. feel so tired i dunno why. this week haven't really exercise except swimming for once. but i think it's not enough. maybe go swim again later.. haha.. ok i need to go do my tons of work before sch starts tml.. shit i sleep too much, got no time now.. fractically fractic and feels desperate.

Beautiful Saturday

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY mummy.

it's going to be mother's day tml. But i decided that we should bring forward the celebration coz monday's a sch day, and i'll be busy preparing for sch tml.so no time for dinner with my mummy..

Tonight we are going to bring my mommy and my bf's mommy to this chinese restaurant at chinese high(beside the swimming pool) coz apparently my mommy has a VIP card from there even though we had nv tried the restaurant before..

Today i started my day at 8.20am. Woke up from a dream(can't remember what was it) and had to rush to sch for Mrs Wong's discussion with Chunrui and Chermain.Actually the discussion could be quite short, but we made it long coz we were chatting along.. Coz library closes at 1, we left the library at 1. The the last msg tat we heard over the PA system was, " To all library users, we'll be locking up in 10 mins time. Pls check that you do not leave any belongs behind.Thank You."

I was thinking, as if you gng to lock me inside, i mean some librarian or some1 will definitely check around the library first before they really lock up right. haiz anyway.. then later i went to GIANT at Turf City to get fluroscent tube for the toilet, coz it blew up last night, i had to bath in the dark, so i decided to buy one to change it.

I also bought 2 packet of cakemix coz i decided to bake mothers' day cake for my mommy and my bf's mommy on his behalf.haha(he owe me one more)

So nw that i'm back home,i had placed the cake into the oven already,so i'm waiting for time to pass,so i decided to blog.. haha..i got chocolate chip butter cake for my bf's mommy and raisin butter cake for my mommy coz she loves raisin.

I wanna thank you my mommy for showing me her care and concern always, and thank you my bf's mommy for taking care of him so well that he's such a refine adult now.

I wanna thank all mommy's for giving us life,coz without you, there'll not be us now.

i love my mommy.

do we look alike.

I'm Loving it...

"FAN"

小S is back on 100% Entertainment.. awaited for a long long time. haha. i'm suppose to be doing my Form 3 for Activity Analysis. but so happen to pop by(actually is purposely) youtube.com and so i found this clip and started watch and i just can't stop!! i must have good time management.

Last night Concert was great,but audience was so rowdy tat they seem to be going for some singing concert you know...
I received a call asking me to run for presidency, but heard from another person tat they are just looking for pple to run because they don't want the president to run uncontested!! oh man, so you are asking me to be a smoke screen issit.. should i agree or not to? i really don't know, only another 2 hrs more for me to decide.. what should i do?? i need some advice? should i run or not?

A day at Chinatown

Yesterday was labour day, so we went around chinatown and had some fun time taking photos around singapore. Looking for some nice scene in singapore.. but after not long, crystal's batt died out on her, so left me and chelsea.. but just slightly before lunch, chelsea camera also died on her.So.. i'm the sore survivor on the day, but then my memory card was full by the time we reach esplanade..

I drove to chinatown and had to use $3.50 of coupons.. then went to marina sq later and paid $2.. so the total parking fee for that day was $5.50.. so damn ex la.. why is there no more free parking on public hols for public carpark.. really don't understand.. haiz.. and the aunties are busy walking around the public carparks looking for cheaters. but i mean it's public hols can they have a break too. haiz..

anyway it was fun, and we explored the boutique hotel in chinatown called the Scarlet. it was really a seductive and romantic place for young lovers so i recommend all honeymooner who are coming to singapore to stay in there, you'll have no regrets man...

ok so here is a preview of the pictures we took yesterday. haven't got time to do up the rest.but will do it when i'm free.

too busy with sch now. can't wait for the next public hols and we can go phototaking around singapore again.. erm, next place should be Holland Village.. anyone interested can join us. take care pal..

i'm really excitied to go back to SAV to wait SAJC band Concert.. looking forward to friday..

hweeee

finally figured out how to use adobe photoshop.. and this is what i got from learning photoshop. time to hit back to the books.. it's only 2nd wk of sch.. already so many many things to do. i need a break.. thinking of redang trip in june(my 2 wks hols) any one interested to join me??

Pressing on Toward the GOAL

MY GOAL

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that of which Christ Jesus told hold of me.

Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward to Christ Jesus.

JIAYOU!!

Stress

STRESS.....

someone told me it was never easy??

Thank you for the roses..

STRESS.....

In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light, my strength, my song

This Cornerstone, this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace

When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

My Comforter, my All in All

Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh

Fullness of God in helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

'Till on that cross as Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay

Light of the world by darkness slain

Then bursting forth in glorious Day

Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory

Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life's first cry to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

'Till He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

GET me OUT of STRESS!!

Airmail from my dearest in australia.

what's inside the parcel, and also...

a postcard from my dearest.

Happy Birthday Huihui.

明明很爱你

有多少人在旁边
我们都视而不见
彼此却忍不住地看几眼
感觉强烈

一句微笑的方便
已经暗示到极限
没勇气的人犹豫的瞬间
幸福就飘过面前

我平凡无奇
而你像灿烂星星
让我担心

明明很爱你
明明想靠近
但是你的身边有人捧花总是拥挤
我凭什么一一打败情敌
敢大声说要做你(我)的唯一

明明很爱你
明明想靠近
为什么还要再浪费时间不把你(我)抱紧
攻真心才是最厉害的武器
我会拼命让你更满意

讲配不配太俗气
说爱不爱要问起
爱由我们自己决定
不必理跌破谁的眼镜

有多少人在旁边
我们都视而不见
彼此却忍不奏看几眼
感觉强烈

已经微笑地放电
已经暗示到极限
没勇气的人犹豫的瞬间
幸福就飘过面前

我平凡无奇
而你像灿烂星星
让我担心

明明很爱你
明明想靠近
但是你的身边有人捧花总是拥挤
我凭什么一一打败情敌
敢大声说要做你(我)的唯一

明明很爱你
明明想靠近
为什么还要再浪费时间不把你(我)抱紧
够真心才是最厉害的武器
我会拼命让你更满意

讲配不配太俗气
说爱不爱要问心
爱由我们自己决定
不必理跌破谁的眼镜

What's Wrong

What's Wrong???

My friends always tell me, i really admire you and your guy, so loving and supportive of each other. You all look like you are ready to be for each other for the rest of your lives..

oh issit... i always wish it's the case, i don't know why. lazy to look for love,so just wanna stick with him forever? or what is it?

The love still seem strong(at least my love for him is) but i don't know what wrong recently.. am i asking too much from him, or do i have too high expectation of him. Or did he just trying to give up his life to some setback and difficulties that he face everyday? i don't know what wrong lately, but it doesn't seem like we are understanding each other anymore, even when i seem to know how he feels, he thinks i don't.. same for him i guess..

Falling in love always seem so easy, why staying in love seem so tiring for me.. after coming to 3 yrs, where do i stand? where are we going? still in the same direction? So much about love? some ask me do you envy those who are single and happy.. i'll post the qn back to them, then do you envy those who are attached but still as happy as can be? But now, i don't know who i should envy? both parties seems like a disgusting position to be in...

what is love? what is being there for each other? what's wrong? i don't know.. why did he suddenly turn his back unto me, and the last sentence he said to me was ''then dun talk to me''... oh shit did i say something wrong before that... maybe i did.. all i said was '' when i talk to you, i feel like strangling myself ''... haiz.. should i not have said that at all.. but that was how i really felt then.. is there something wrong.. i really dunno.. but i'm also too tired to think anymore.. i just feel like sleeping and dream that it can go back 3 years ago and i want to start all over again.. will i still make the same decision, will i still do the same thing? will we still choose to be seperated... haiz. why ask so much.. i just don't want to think about it anymore.

i'm so useless...

hohoho... today, i received my first birthday card. from uncle eric.. thanks.and this year the card is nice. every year he sends a different card and usually they are very special..

before sch start

haha... went for morning service today, then had lunch with hannah, chelsea and another friend from church. After that went to meet my bruddy who came back from india training.. and he still got the cheek to be late for more than 1/2 hr. then we saw my long lost junior kok and his girlfriend shopping around town.. Went to borders cos my rich bruddy wanna buy ipod nano... and then to be sorry for being late, treated me to a cup of hot chocolate and we talked and chit chat... and i got tired so wanna come home and rest and also wanna accompany my dear who's home alone the whole day and feeling all so lonely in brisbane... but i can't help much so come home and 'accompany' him online..

going to take a nap now..Bye.

All ready to return to sch. I bought the diary and pencil case from borders. The pencil case cost me $10bucks and i like it.. quite ok la..been looking for a new pencil case for a long time, the old one is a big too big and dirty liao.

ciao...

My God's Sent Angel

This is my cutee-pie sent from god to brighten up my day!

boRed

Justing thinking if i can be there...Life should be wonderful and beautiful...

JimmY

ok.. nothing really much, blogging is regular only during my hols, but sch is gng to start next monday and the new sem timetable is ouT... i must say, it's just so horrible...
it'll be hell much busier than the last sem. but i think i'm pretty excited abt sch,but the worrying thing is that i think i'll be very lost in class..

Flipping thru Gray's Anatomy for Student txt today, and realise i had returned alot of anatomy back to Ravi.. how?
Remembering the last day of my exam, we met our manager Hua Beng who reminded us and scared us with a prelude of how Yr 2 life will be like and even reminded us to retain 5% of our role as a student role.. i guess i had almost 100% resign myself to a slacker role during the hols. So this last wk of hols, i'm trying to make up that 5% of my student role, hope i can make it before sch start, otherwise i forget that i'll have double amt of work more to do!!! argh.....

Other than flipping that txt, i went out for dinner with my mom and my sis, there was this popular clearance sale i think and so i saw this book tat i think i should try picking up...
At the start of the hols, i was reading Dave Pelzer's A man named Dave. then i'm almost completing it when i stop to play sims2, and sims2 conquered my life... haha..

Then next was VCDs and it killed my living cells reminding in my body, so i started to go running around my estate every evening.. then now.... i'm trying to regain my student role so i'm flipping txtbk.

anyway i saw this book which i said i'll pick it up.coz i realise my chinese is getting suckier and suckier and so before it all gone to nothing, i'll start to refresh it again. It's a comic book by Jimmy (you know the comic artist who did the turn left,turn right movie) and there were few chinese words here and there.. so i decided i'll read it at my free time.. keke..

And this is the book....

Anyway yesterday my daddy was so generous to give my bro a farewell dinner before he goes to taiwan for his army training, and he brought us to BoonLay Restuarant and had each a bowl of fins...( i showed this picture to kenrick and he said, what the ... is that orange soup?)

zhen says he's cute. Really?


Hang out at Esplanade, watched an outdoor performance @ On the Waterfront


This is Zhen and Me


just finished my mee soto at Lido


Met Peggy at KAP coz she's preparing for exam( oh, poorthing! )

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The Straits Times, Saturday, 8 April 2006.
Take a look at it when you are free, both educational and refreshing.

As i was flipping thru the papers this morning, i read the SATURDAY edition with care, 'cos they were talking about pallitative care, i.e. hospice care.
As i had learnt Lifespan n lifestyle development as 1 of my modules in the last sem, i got interested as the reporters reported about hospice in Singapore.
I thought this is rather educational for those who had not heard about hospice care, or didn't have the right info about hospice services.In the special report, they interviews staff in hospice care, patients, family members and even volunteers who helped out in hospice. It gave an better insight of what hospice helps this patients.. and it highlighted many points that we had missed out.
Firstly, hospice is not only for patients who are terminally ill, and definitely patients in hospice do not just wait till that day come in the hospice. Many care and support were given to these patients and family members.
In fact, 1 in 4 hospice patients walks out alive and gets to die at home.(The straits time, 2006).
In hospice, they provide pallitative care, which are not just simply medical needs, but also tend to the psychosocial, spiritual and emotional needs of the patients. They ensure that patients die in comfort and not unnecessary pain.
Next, hospice is not really a sad place to end up with, coz if you are a bacholar with no family members to take care of you when you are ill, that's a gd place that you can go, coz the staff there are caring and tries to fulfil your last wishes.( i sound like i'm promoting hospice)
"When death is inevitable and we know we can't add days to their life, we try to add life to their days." -Dr Noreen Chan, medical director of Dover Park Hospice, (The Straits Time, 2006)
It's so exciting to find out that there are many programs and events organised for these patients and some who gets better get a chance to go on outing at the zoo, or even to sentosa. Who says the only thing that the terminally ill does is to wait for the heaven gate to open.
Lastly, in one of the interview with a bedridden man who learnt how to walk in the hospice and now are back home already. Wow, it's an achievement for both the staff and the patient, and i'm proud of them.
I guess it's time for us to change our view about hospice care, and in fact we should be supportive of such services in singapore. What's more important to die in comfort and with no regrets.
What is death when you have no regrets and pain. I guess hospice is also a great place for us to learn about death and how we can overcome our fear of death and the different perspective of death. Late adulthood.... that's how it ends.
" Death in itself is not a tragedy. With every passing moment, each of us is closer to death. But if a patient dies unhappy and in pain, if families are left unsupported during this difficult period, that would be a tragedy. " - Dr Noreen Chan, medical director of Dover Park Hospice, (The Straits Time, 2006)

5th april 06

Can Life be Simple Again?
Can Life be Beautiful again?
Who can i trust now?

Dear, today is a special day, but we can't be together. Although i know you are suffering, but i know you didn't forget this day.Thank you for giving such an unbelievable chapter in my life.

曲名：雨人 歌手：周华健

好像就从那一个夜晚开始

下起雨一直没有放过晴

我勾着那把伞

漂浮在人群里

慢慢的以为身边还有你

小气的用着那些你的记忆

一点点就够我看到彩虹

全世界的颜色

全留在你那里

我只有不断一直淋着雨

我相信我爱你

蒙上眼手交给你

慢慢的安心在黑暗中

共有一双眼睛

我要不断的爱你

不断拼凑了自已

生命中所以好不好的过去

仿佛都在等我遇见你

-+= 祝天下有情人找到真爱！=+-

i can't find a reason to cry

life is just so torturous.. it's a toying of one's feeling.
it's about giving one hope,but putting it down easily too.
life can be so simple, but we can see it as a very complex thing too.
A pair of lover, going thru thick and thin together,but at the end they are seperated by a simple thing call love.
it's not easy to be in love, but it's even harder to give love. When you are so far apart, you promised that nothing will pull us about, but we just drifted away from each other everyday.Why is it so? what's that physics or chemistry behind this?
Another hope is gone, and now left with the last choice, not that i'm not happy that there is at least one last choice, but it's not a really gd choice either. What will pple say, what will my parents say?
Do i really have to care about what they say? or can i just care about how i feel?
I used to cry because i have so many reasons to cry, but today, i just can't find a reason to cry when i feel like crying out.
Suffering is part of everybodies life, but why is mine seem nv to come to an end.
i just wanna shout my misery out, just wanna cry my lungs out, and cry till my tear glands dry, but i got no reason to cry.
i want a simple life.

我要快乐

歌手: 张惠妹

又被爱伤了一遍

无所谓当作成长

刚刚走开的人

烟还点着味道却淡了

我并不是天生爱寂寞

却比任何人都多

就算把世界给我

我还是一无所有

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳

有些人不抱了才温暖

离开了才不恨我早应该割舍

我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声

心不是热的全都是假的

只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍

谢谢了伤我的人

想做乐观的人

每种雨声听了都不冷

我并不是天生爱寂寞

却比任何人都多

就算把世界给我

我还是一无所有

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳

有些人不抱了才温暖

离开了才不恨我早应该割舍

我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声

心不是热的全都是假的

我的决定是对的

To see the chinese characters, go to [view] -> [encoding] -> [unicode (UTF-8)].

Recently i heard this while i was driving, and i really like ah-mei song, i think this songs kinda speak my heart out.listen to it if you have the chance to. i love ah-mei's voice.

come home fast

although time seems to be flying, but only 1 month had gone. I believe i had sent out 5 letters to him over these 4 weeks.
Recently there is a show about this girl having to choose between 2 guys, which she kept contact in different manners. One by snail mail and the other by email. If you are the girl, who will you choose?
Although i didn't catch any episode of the show, but if i'm the girl, i'll choose the guy with snail mail. reason being i feel the love and the distance between 2 person drawing close when i see his handwriting. By looking at his handwriting, i can see the feeling that he has went writing that letter, when i see his handwriting, i feel that he's just beside me. When i see his handwriting, i can picture him right in my head.
Many at times we tend to take things for granted, and we never come to realise how much we need each other until we are seperated. This hols had made me think and reflected. Why did i choose OT? why did i try for the scholarship? why did i miss him so much even though communications are so easily available now? Until today, some answers to my own reflection are still unknown, and i never asked myself these qns until some one stop me and pulled me aside to ask me to reflect. Thank you for your concern and it had made me think and think again.
Until now, i still don't regret coming into this course, although you keep telling me that you got no hols like uni have. But i guess the uni doesn't enjoy as much as i can enjoy during class and with my coursemates.
Recently i'm looking forward to moving to my aunt's place,even if it's just temporary. It's really convinient for me if i can move to woodlands coz it'll allow me to reduce my travelling time, which i can't complain coz i have my dear fren staying in boon lay( even further than me). But travelling had really made me sick and tired of going home sometimes. and when i reach home, i'm so tired that i don't feel like facing the books anymore. And worst of all, my room is no longer a condusive environment for me to study anymore. Why do i say that?
In the past, my granny used to travel ard and not stay permenantly at my place. So i'm still quite comfortable with her sharing a room with me. But over the past yr, she had decided to stay permenantly at my place, in other words, share room with me everyday, including public hols (which is 24/7). This really makes me feel very awkward, especially when her bed is next to my study table. When she sleeps at the bed while i'm studying at my table, i always feel that she's looking at me. Maybe i'm just being paranoid, but i believe no one likes that feeling. And because it's dark when i don't turn both lights on when i study, but one of the lights shine directly above my granny's bed, and makes her unable to sleep when i study deep into the night. Then i compensated by turning that light off and switch on my table lamp, but because my table is next to the bed, it doesn't make much of a difference. My parents ask me not to be bothered by that, and my bf mother gave me a divider to seperate the light from shining over.i tot that is much better le. but she still continue to complain to my aunt about me making noise at late night and i really feel that i'm so restricted in my own house, own room.. Oh man, do i not have privacy or not even my own space to work, sleep and be happy and contented with.
So i needed a solution, i suggested that we move to the flat after the contract with my current tenant had end, but my family strongly disagree with that. Then i said, can i change room with my bro.He agreed so readily, but still he took back his words, what a man.thinking of this incident makes my blood boils. Why is my family not understanding my situation. do anyone of them wanna try it out for themselves. Y are my aunt and my granny so unreasonable. y don't they try to put themselves into my shoe and see how it feels.
So now, i'm looking for alternatives. at first my aunt(mom's side) said i can move to her place since she has spare room and my cousin is studying overseas currently. Then they took tat offer back by giving tons of excuses that even my mom can't accept them. So now i headed to my next plan, renting a room from my bf's fren(also my fren). 2 sisters staying in a flat at woodlands. walking distance from mrt, suits me almost perfectly. But i had to await for their reply before i head to my last resort, tat would be to move out to my bf's place and stay in his room until he comes home. i didn't plan for that actually but his parents offered, if that's my last resort i'll really consider tat, unless you got better suggestions for me.
This few days, i wasn't feeling well. at the bottom corner of my heart, there is this constant pain and i keep thinking of my bf. So many things had happened while he was gone, and everytime i just wish for him to be beside me, but without fail he will send someone to talk to me. Thanks dear, if there is no you in my life, i can't imagine if i'm happier or worst now.
Memories flow back when i started to flip the old photo albums. looking at all the events that we had together and the happy times we had together. i never remember as happy until now, i'm so foolish. i'm so crazy over you. And this 2 days, i miss you even more. We don't talk as much as we used to in the past, and everynight the topic nv fails to be comforting you coz you are feeling really stress. But sometimes, i just hope to talk about some happy and lightheartened things with you. Everyday, our conversation is the same, i'm not sick of it,but it makes me feel really tired and i just feel that i got no more strength for you, coz i had put in all the strength to support you, so much so that i got no more strength to let myself be strong anymore.
I don't know what i'm talking now, but i am love sick i guess. talking to you only makes me feel so near yet so far. Esp when we chat on msn and skype, it's even worse. seeing you on the webcam gives me the urge to get a ticket and fly immediately to be there with you. i wan to give you a hug but my hands are not long enough to reach. i don't know how long more we can go, but i really hope we can go on forever. i wish for sch to start so tat i can study with you again. i wish sch to start because only when sch start i can focus my mind again on my books and not miss you so much.
Everyday i past without you by my side, everyday seems to be like a never ending tunnel, when will i come to the end of the tunnel again. Dear, come home fast... i really miss you alot.

Let me support you all the way k. i miss your smile. jia you dear.

i dunno

This is posted specially for you.

Maybe i had said things that i should not have said, maybe i had hurt you more than anyone else had ever done unto you. Maybe i should just shut up and just absorb everything you said like a sponge.Maybe i should not be here at all.

Sometimes i just don't know, what had gone over me? is my life just gng downslope from now onwards? where is my power of motivation? is it not working on you anymore? am i so not understanding and unable to feel as you suffer? where is that piece of love for you?

Everynight, i hope that we can talk about something different, but i just realise that as the days go by, the topic is just restricted to why you are suffering and why not others but you? i told you that i understand that you are very stressed up with your school work and i know it's not easy to be independent especially when you got everything taken care of when you are here. And you said i'll never understand coz i nv experience it before. ( this really hurts) am i so useless that even now, the things i said, you can't even be bothered coz you are too involved in being hurt and hurting yourself even more?

I really don't know what i should do? i really don't know if i am still able to carry on? i'm trying very hard not to give you anymore trouble. but everytime when i have a problem, you are the first one i think of.No matter good or bad, you are always the first one that i want to share that piece of news with. You said you are always there to encourage me when i have a problem (are you telling me that i nv do that for you)

i'm willing to say sorry if that's what you want to hear from me, lastly, no matter how much i said to hurt you, i just want you to be that determined and strong guy that i fall in love with, now i'm searching for him. pls ask him back.

Lastly, i still love you.gd night.The smile is missing in every picture.can you see it?

This is my prayer for all of us tonight:

Answer me when i call to you, O my righteous God.

Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer. Psalm 4:1

Give ear to my words, O Lord, consider my sighing.

Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you i pray. Psalm 5:1-2

Dear lord, pls help those who are suffering, regardless of the quality of life or from the illness, help those who are unable to cry to you.Help those who had cried to you and those who had spoken to you.Hope those who are eagerly waiting for a response each day, and lastly help everyone who walks in your light. Amen.

Let's talk about LOVE

In God's word, he said,


Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.
Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourself.
Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord.
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.
Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse.
Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.
Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.
Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody.
If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.
Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; i will repay," says the Lord.
On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."
Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
-Roman 12 : 9-21.

Do all the brothers and sisters understand this passage. Let's shower our love this month. thank god.

Happy Together!

Imagine me and you,

I doI think about you day and night, it's only right

To think about the girl you love and hold her tight

So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime

And you say you belong to me and ease my mind

Imagine how the world could be, so very fine

So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you

For all my life

When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue

For all my life

If I should call you up, invest a dime (Call you up)

And you say you belong to me and ease my mind (Ease my mind)

Imagine how the world could be, so very fine (Very fine)

So happy together (together)

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you

For all my life

When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue

For all my life [x2]

About my life (Yeah!)

Call you up

Ease my mind, Ease my mind, Ease my mind!

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you

For all my life

When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue

For all my life [x2]Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba

So happy together (Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba)

So happy together (Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba)

So happy together (Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba)

So happy together (Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba)

Thank you friends, you all are just too wonderful.

misery

Viking or roller coaster? which is most suitable to describe my life now?

I guess it's Viking, at least i know there are times when roller coaster travel straight right.
My mood swings like the Vike, and i am feeling totally lost, lost in the battle, lost in direction, lost my self-esteem too. It had been a exciting 2 wks of hols, and in fact,i'm looking forward to more,but then it seems like it's time i come to a stop.

After looking at my results today, tears flooded the table in front of me. I don't know whether i'm dissapointed or full of regrets,but i must say i really tried my best already.But why did my results turn out so disgustingly.

Pple always say, you will reap what you had sow. is it always true. i doubt so. i mean, i really put in effort, even lost contacts with many friends because i'm totally busy with the hell of sch work and projects. always staying in the library, busy doing readup and all, but why still like tat. i also dunno why.it's just unexplanable to me at this moment.

i'm losing that confident i used to have, and most importantly, i'm losing the chance to excel.

it's not as if i didn't work hard at all, but it still turned out like tat.I'm not saying it's anyone fault, and even so,it's my own fault.maybe i should have tried harder when i tot i already tried my best.

Something happened at home, and something happened to myself, so i'm giving a miss to the sailing trip. I would not enjoy myself even if i go,and i'm feeling guilty if i go.so yup,i'm not gng this time. i must do better next sem and make up for my stupid mistake this time. I must also keep a clean bill of health so that i won't miss class and miss out important stuff. i hate myself. i hate myself. i hate myself.

I wanna go for Retail Therapy, anyone interested?

life is just so simple

Just that Simple Life...

finally, exam's over. holiday is here.

BUt it's just another lonely holiday without him by my side. it's god's will.We are seperated by land and water. only when i'm busy, he will be free, and vice versa.tell me what can i do.Not to go against god's will, but i just want back that kind of life, where i can enjoy myself with him. I just wanna spend time with him, after his busy schedule. Somehow, we always see the busy side of one another that we are starting to forget those enjoyable moment that we had together. haiz.

nothing much this hols, but i'm all ready for the coming sailing trip with my friends. i'm sure it's gonna be exciting, hope the sea will be just calm and smooth so that we don't get sea sick and start to pollute the sea. It's a trip out to South China sea. Gng to conquer a little isles at the heart of south china sea. Guess i'll just more picture to explain the beautiful paradise.

As for him, i hope he'll do well this sem, just like next sem. However, i hope he has less problems and a smoother journey this sem, and hopefully he come home soon.

tat's all folks. take care~

life is just so simple

i love you too... hope you are doing well over there.

happy holidays!

the 2006

finally a year had gone passed.
i had listed my new year resolution:
1) concentrate fully on my studies.
2) i hope to spend more time with my family
3) i wish everyone's health to be pink
4) i wish to discover my hidden self
5) i hope to maintain this long term relationship

anyway year 2005 had passed so excitingly, and i guess it's been the year that i had travelled the most.Let's recap.
the happiest moment i had in 2005: i guess it would be when i celebrated my birthday with him and of course the time we spent alone in brisbane.(an unforgettable memory that's still fresh in my mind)
the most reliving moment in 2005: that's definitely after i receive my A's result.then it's when i got into my dream course (Occupational Therapy)
the most self fulfiling moment in 2005: i successfully pursuaded my parents for their approval to let me travel on my own.
the saddest moment in 2005: the moment at the airport on the 12th of July. the very moment that he entered that departure gate.
the stupidest thing i did in 2005: there's too many to list. but i guess it would be to let him go that night.
the biggest achievement i had in 2005: i passed my sem1 fairly well and i would definitely wanna do better this sem.
the biggest dilemma in 2005: to further my studies in aust or locally. but i chose this place, coz this is where i grew up from. this is where my supports are. this is where i think i can study happily.
the last movie i watched in 2005: Harry Potter
the last of the last in 2005: the last MHMB band concert. I just miss that bunch of pple. i just miss the conductor. i just miss the smell of that room.i just miss everything that we did together.

tell me this coming year is going to be more ups and downs. prepare me for the worst to come. pray for everyone and me that we can have a happy ending.

It's all god's plan. I hope mine is a smooth journey with the minimal hurdles.
I had a hard time in 2005. i had a hard time trying my best to let it go. i had tried my best to stand by myself. i think i had did it!
Year 2006, way to go!