a day with my uncle

today i had to accompany my uncle to the hospital for checkup, so i missed physio class(hope my friend will help me along). anyway i spent the whole day there, starting from 10am till 6pm that i left that place. it was a day of happiness and yet painful too.
First we visited the endocrinologist and he told us the latest findings that he had found. Firstly, he told us that the phosphate level in my uncle's body had returned to the norm(something that we are very happy about) and also this means that some of the symptoms are going off slowly. Then he reviewed to us the MRI scan findings, and they found a tumor in the nasal cavity!!!
tension built up within me as i bited my teeth tightly to see what he says next.
phew.... he didn't say what characteristic the tumour is. to me is a gd news coz i can't take too many shocking news in a day you know. anyway we were further referred on to a ENT(EAR, NOSE, and THROAT) surgeon. We did a biospy of the tumour to test for the characteristic of it. and then after that we will proceed to the surgery and after the surgery things should hopefully be back to normal again. Anyway i'm happy with the registrar, he was a nice guy, he read alot, practise evidence-based practice. What make me really impressed with him was that, he sent us off for lunch while he prepares for a memo to refer us on to the next ENT surgeon. He takes his time and prepares the memo carefully ok.. i mean how many doctors or specialist will do that? So i'm really happy with him. Then when i tot we'll be scheduled to see the ENT surgeon only sometime later, but my uncle called me to say we had to stay longer coz he's gng to see the ENT surgeon in the afternoon. wow wasn't the service like EXPRESS.. you'll never expect this kind of express service given to you, especially if you are under government subsidy man.But anyway i'm happy with the arrangement, so we immediately went to see the ENT surgeon and did a biopsy. This is when the painful part of the day hit me. When i saw the tube inserting into my uncle's nasal, that moment the blood just gush out of the nostrils.. i know it was painful. the look on my maid's face was totally disgusted.. and she had to leave the room coz she couldn't stand another second seeing it. So being supportive as i can, i stayed by my uncle's side and suffer the pain with him. Coz the blood continued to bleed, we had to wait for another 45 mins to make sure that the blood clots and that he's safe to return home, if not he'll have to stay in for a few day's of observation. and my poor uncle and to pinch his nose tight to stop the wound from bleeding. Anyway while waiting, my poor uncle sneezed a few time, and blood starts to flow out of the nostrils again like a river flowing downstream.. i saw that painful look and unbearable disappointment and tiredness on his face, i got the urge to go forward and give him a hug. wad stopped me was the blood.. so i pat him on the shoulder, assuring him that he'll be fine and i told him i'll try my best to help him whenever possible. I hope i can take off some of his sufferings, i hope i can share that pain with him. Later when the ENT surgeon was exaiming the wound thru the endoscope, i was there beside my uncle, you know the pain of squeezing a small tube thru your nostril, you just feel nausea and uncomfortable. I saw his temporalis contracting as he tried to bear on with the pain, and i saw his masticatory muscles contract, i contracted my masticatory muscles as well.. i felt the pain going thru my nose too..
It was a relieve when the doctor told me that he is able to go home and rest.Thank god for answering my prayer.But if anything in the night that the nose starts to bleed thru the clot, i had to send him back to A n E immediately. So pple, pls pray for us.
My aunty was really worried when i picked up her call just now.She just left this morning to malaysia for a christian convention, although i could see that she didn't really leave with a peace of mind, but i know she just wanted to please my uncle coz he insisted that she goes for the trip. Anyway i might be young and small in her eyes, but i think i can do a great job taking care of my uncle.so pls don't worry, just pray for us.
Finally it was time to hit back home. On the road when i was driving, there were a lot of barger... as if the road own by them.
First i was trying to land change, and i and shined my signal light ok. this stupid red car just refuse to let me thru. and horn at me. and he horn at me again when he had already stopped his car for me to go. and when i moved, he moved as well.. WTF.... then i saw another barger trying to bully a small car and then so surprisingly, when they seperated quite far away, i was following behind that small car and he stretched his hand out of the window and pointed that obsence finger at that barger.. i was wow!! but at that time i shocked my head too.. so disappointed with singaporeans.. is this wad you call world class!!.. haiz.
Anyway i was shopping in SGH while waiting for my uncle, i discovered a medibook store in SGH and there were student rate. So i got myself an neurology and nervous system book. Coz i am totally lost in param's class, especially when i miss 2 hours of lect and 1 hour of pract today..
i think i better stop typing and start hitting the books again.But before that, i think i need a nap.i'm really tired, physically and mentally..
oh yar, i'm so happy for my boyfriend today, it was his d-day aka demo-day for his team project. And i'm so glad god answered another of my prayer. his product was working fine and he scored 54/50,i.e. he earned 4 bonus point.so he had pocketed a distinction again this sem. I guess his lifeless in brisbane is all worth it after all. i hope he does better and better.. but shit, tat means it's more pressure for me!! damn it. See what i am like when i'm tired, i start swearing. i shall stop.BYE..

Something from my bible reading today..

We ought always to thank God for you, brothers, and rightly so, because your faith is growing more and more, and the love every on of you has for each other is increasing.

Therefore, among God's churches we boast about your perseverance and faith in all the persecutions and trails you are enduring.

All this is evidence that God's judgement is right, and as a result you will be counted worthy of the kingdom of God, for which you are suffering. God is just: He will pay back trouble to those who trouble you and give relief to you who are troubled, and to us as well.

This happen when the Lord Jesus is revealed from heaven in blazing fire with his powerful angels.

He will punish those who do not know God and do not obey the the gospel of our Lord Jesus.

They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the majesty of his power on the day he comes to be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have believed.

This includes you, because you believed our testimony to you.

With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, the our God may count you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may fulfill every good purpose of yours and every act prompted by your faith. We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who eanestly seek him (Hebrews 11:6)

With faith and thanksgiving, we can please god. With faith and thanksgiving, god will find us worthy of his callings. So keep that faith and always be grateful and thankful of whatever we have.We must learn to cherish our love ones.

Another topic of LOVE

This is from the bible too.. read this and understand this during my quiet time.SO i shall share it with all of you..

If i speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If i have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledg, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of worngs. Love does not delight in evil,but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I think it's all so true. If i'm have not love, i'm nothing, and i had not gain anything.. So does the morale of the story asking us to fall in love? I guess it means to love god and to love your brothers and you family members.

So much about love. This wk had been a hectic wk, staying in sch almost every day since thursday. and this suddenly strike me this morning, i think since sch started. i had been back for 5 saturdays( today is wk 6 already). i.e. i only managed to stay at home on only 1 saturday since my class started. oh dear. to me weekend is really precious coz it's the only time for me to spend with my family and also to do my work. but really, today i kinda wasted the whole day, coz i came home and i slept for almost 2 hours. bUt i'm already feeling sleepy how... ok nvm, i shall stop here and hit back to the books. i must stay awake.

God's Love and Ours

ok, i know i shouldn't be blogging now.But i just wanna bring this msg to everyone who reads this. This was the passage that i read during Service yesterday and i tot i really makes me ponder if i'm faithful and truthful to god. So how it goes..

Dear Friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God.

Everyone who loves has been born of God and Knows God.

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is Love.

This is how God showed his love among us: He Sent his one and Only Son into the world that we might live through him

This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our Sins.

Dear friends, Since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.

No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in Us.

We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit.

And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Saviour of the World.

If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God.

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.

In this way, love is made complete among Us so that we will have confidence on the day of Judgement, because in this world we are like him.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.

The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

We love because he first loved Us.

If anyone says, 'I love God,' yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother,

whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.

And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his Brother.

Do i really love God, do i then really love my brother?

I wish there is no answer to this, coz god will answer me one day.

Really worried for my boy coz he's under alot of stress from his sch work.
Although i'll see him in no time( 4 wks) i'm still missing him alot, and always wondering how he's coping.

Really worried for everyone around me. Wondering if they are coping well..

my friend confided in me thru sms while i was returning from church. So for the past wk, The belief and faith in Christ had been in my head all the time. I missed church on mothers' day. Was it on purpose or was it a trial that god had put me thru. had i pass it or flunked it? i really dont know.

TOday my auntie confronted me about my faith and my belief again. I really don't know man.

i just feel that i need a break from this.

Even over lunch, the topic never leave that center of attention about faith and belief.

Must one christian adhere closely to all the commandments of God, if not one doesn't qualify to be God's believer.

ok, maybe that's why i never called myself a christian, coz i don't fully qualified to be one.

I don't follow every single commandment closely. For the very first rule , my loved ones are not believer of God.

Does that make me a sinner then? i'm questioning my own faith and belief now.

So just let me be ok. Don't force me into your own belief coz i really can't agree to that.

God pls help and guide me thru this.

Sch Sch Sch

Fifth Week of School

if you wan find any word to describe it, all I can say is 'Hectic'..

School life hasn't been easy for anyone, especially for us. We have like 3 sub-modules squeeze into 1 core module. And the sub modules itself is already very demanding..

Being taught for only 4wks and going for a Viva voce is not easy man. it's only 4 wks, and you have to apply everything tat you learn into tat 10-15mins of viva voce.. with that trembling voice and that echo-y room, the thoughts of it just make me shiver again..And it's going to be 15% of 1 core module. 10-15mins of work will determine your 15%percent. oh man, i'm not trying to be calculative here, but it's just too much to bear man.

can you imagine, having a viva voce in wk4, I was just warming up man...

Hurdles after hurdles... i'm still hanging there, with the support and guidance from god, I guess I can pull it thru again this semester, but what I want is to get better. but how to get better when I don't have time to do my own things but just trying to catch up with whatever I had missed out.. life is not easy as a 2nd yr student man..

but I must say, it was really interesting..

Self-maintanance module for cool.. way cool.. thinking of ways to adapt our dangerous environment to a safe one, with the cheapest material and the simplest gadget.. so cool.. And Magnus always telling us where her hidout and where she source for cheap gds.. I love this module man. anyway if I really work in community setting in future, I think this is one of the big area that I would wan venture into. using junk to create assistive device for the poor and needy. Wow..it's my dream ok.

then next is creativity.. haha for those who had clicked on my class blog OT0502 in my links, you would know tat we are having fun in class.. playing with clay.. I never knew tat my hands can be so good.. And also I went for phototaking around chinatown with my 2 classmates( coz we were inspired by Dewitt Jones, a photographer for national geography) we saw his video and his perception of things in this world.way cool man..And then today was puppetry.. haha n we had a plot to act out.so using my drawing talent, we decided to tell the story of the REDHILL.. And lastly, my project for creativity, I had many ideas, but decided on making paper marchie to do a piggy-bank model.Practical and therapeutic.i thinking of doing a slam dunk too.but see how la.

then come BIO-Sensorimotor. it's interesting coz we can to palpate and practice palpating on our classmates. Prerequisition: Wear Swimming costumme for every pract class..

haha.. no kidding. it'll be a 3 hr pract when my own class will be parading in swimming costumme. And touching eachother so openly and legally.. no one can charge me of molest during tat 3 hr man.

then it's mobility when I learn how to use the wheelchair, and then how to position my pt, how to help them get up of bed and doing transfer from wheelchair to bed and vice versa, and many other things tat get them to move around basically.. it's fun to me coz it's hands on.. And I like hands on stuff..

unlike...

NE..oh god, it's a totally waste of time. And yar your eyes are not playing trick on you, it's National Education(NE). it's 0 credit but 100% attendance is compulsory. Ok, the stupidest thing tat the lecturer threaten us with is tat we need tat NE cert to get to Local Uni, but I was like, ok, tell me tat again if there an OT degree in Singapore.. haiz.. she need to keep herself updated man.

then was Behavioral Modification. I hate it.cz lecturer is boring, with cannot make it sense of humor.then the examples tat she gave(usually with her children) makes me feel sorry for her children. can you imagine your mom know behavior mod so well tat she's subtling conditioning you everyday, and she has no worry that you'll find out one day,coz she believes tat you are under her control all the time.. oh tat's spooky man. I don't deny tat conditioning and behavior modification is in our daily life and happening to us all the time. but at least before I have this module, I didn't feel tat i'm being conditioned and being controlled.so tat's ok. haha... living with ignorant is good..

then Behavioral Science modules are ok. quite interesting something, not so some other time. but overall i'm enjoying it. especially basic counselling, so friend, you can always talk to me if you need to,i'll try to help you.. today we video recorded our counselling session with our friend( ok, only my group did it) and we had a great time analysis the video and assessing our own performance.. so at the end of all these sessions, we are suppose to write a reflective report and peer eval on how we fare in our skills of basic counselling. haha. cool man I can't wait.

Magnus said tat Vivo voce results will be posted out somewhere this wk. no one failed,but some did better than others.so i'm worried tat I didn't do so well.although didn't put in 110% effort, but I did my max tat I can do.

it's getting busy each wk.this wkend suppose to join class in soccer tournament.What a joke.but hope can win something small.. better than nothing right. haha..

ok physiology is in a mess now.better catch up with it soon,otherwise i'll die at the end of sem.

Doing on vision, hearing and vestibular system. But they all related and all so complicated.tat sometimes I really dont catch what param is saying. And param, being a In-dian. I had difficulties catching his pronounciation.words like Cerebrum and cerebellum.. haiz. And alot more... but he's sense of humor makes me try to keep awake as much as possible,so param is a good guy.

ok lastly, i'm missing SAJC and esp the band members, and MHMB too.. I bump into lily for the 2nd time today. reminds me of the days when i'll bump into her during break at the SAJC cafeteria(aka canteen)... got to know her thru huiqin, my slack together friend in SAJC (1st 3 mths).. oh dear, miss all tat crap.. And of coz peggy, jas tat group of band members. just met them at the last band concert and I wan go back to band, I wan join alumni, but my timing and committment really has not enough to go around. And august is my exam period,but the SAINTS family playing in Esplanade again, I wan play.. but no time, so maybe i'll be an audience this time.hope I got chance nxt time. but I think SAINT alumni trombone is strong enough too,don't need me..haha.but I still wan add in the noise..

So many things in mind to do,but really no time. like sitting here to blog, I already like wasted 10 mins.. I shall end. bye peeps.take care.

The philosophy of OT

Human should always engage in purposeful occupation, and purposeful occupation keeps one healthy and functioning phsically, mentally and socially.

曹格 Superwomen.. first heard this song on campus superstar.. i think it's really a nice song. the mv also tells a nice story.. i think he's not bad, and he's a malaysian. no particular offends tat he's a malaysian, just proud tat he's an asian born singer. Saw him on 100% Entertainment and he is dating mayi( the jap cute little girl). and he's so sweet to her,always singing for her. wondering if all these songs are written for her too.. haha

Today's mothers' day. skipped church, feeling bad. but i slept the whole night yesterday after coming home from dinner.. feel so tired i dunno why. this week haven't really exercise except swimming for once. but i think it's not enough. maybe go swim again later.. haha.. ok i need to go do my tons of work before sch starts tml.. shit i sleep too much, got no time now.. fractically fractic and feels desperate.

Beautiful Saturday

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY mummy.

it's going to be mother's day tml. But i decided that we should bring forward the celebration coz monday's a sch day, and i'll be busy preparing for sch tml.so no time for dinner with my mummy..

Tonight we are going to bring my mommy and my bf's mommy to this chinese restaurant at chinese high(beside the swimming pool) coz apparently my mommy has a VIP card from there even though we had nv tried the restaurant before..

Today i started my day at 8.20am. Woke up from a dream(can't remember what was it) and had to rush to sch for Mrs Wong's discussion with Chunrui and Chermain.Actually the discussion could be quite short, but we made it long coz we were chatting along.. Coz library closes at 1, we left the library at 1. The the last msg tat we heard over the PA system was, " To all library users, we'll be locking up in 10 mins time. Pls check that you do not leave any belongs behind.Thank You."

I was thinking, as if you gng to lock me inside, i mean some librarian or some1 will definitely check around the library first before they really lock up right. haiz anyway.. then later i went to GIANT at Turf City to get fluroscent tube for the toilet, coz it blew up last night, i had to bath in the dark, so i decided to buy one to change it.

I also bought 2 packet of cakemix coz i decided to bake mothers' day cake for my mommy and my bf's mommy on his behalf.haha(he owe me one more)

So nw that i'm back home,i had placed the cake into the oven already,so i'm waiting for time to pass,so i decided to blog.. haha..i got chocolate chip butter cake for my bf's mommy and raisin butter cake for my mommy coz she loves raisin.

I wanna thank you my mommy for showing me her care and concern always, and thank you my bf's mommy for taking care of him so well that he's such a refine adult now.

I wanna thank all mommy's for giving us life,coz without you, there'll not be us now.

i love my mommy.

do we look alike.

I'm Loving it...

"FAN"

小S is back on 100% Entertainment.. awaited for a long long time. haha. i'm suppose to be doing my Form 3 for Activity Analysis. but so happen to pop by(actually is purposely) youtube.com and so i found this clip and started watch and i just can't stop!! i must have good time management.

Last night Concert was great,but audience was so rowdy tat they seem to be going for some singing concert you know...
I received a call asking me to run for presidency, but heard from another person tat they are just looking for pple to run because they don't want the president to run uncontested!! oh man, so you are asking me to be a smoke screen issit.. should i agree or not to? i really don't know, only another 2 hrs more for me to decide.. what should i do?? i need some advice? should i run or not?

A day at Chinatown

Yesterday was labour day, so we went around chinatown and had some fun time taking photos around singapore. Looking for some nice scene in singapore.. but after not long, crystal's batt died out on her, so left me and chelsea.. but just slightly before lunch, chelsea camera also died on her.So.. i'm the sore survivor on the day, but then my memory card was full by the time we reach esplanade..

I drove to chinatown and had to use $3.50 of coupons.. then went to marina sq later and paid $2.. so the total parking fee for that day was $5.50.. so damn ex la.. why is there no more free parking on public hols for public carpark.. really don't understand.. haiz.. and the aunties are busy walking around the public carparks looking for cheaters. but i mean it's public hols can they have a break too. haiz..

anyway it was fun, and we explored the boutique hotel in chinatown called the Scarlet. it was really a seductive and romantic place for young lovers so i recommend all honeymooner who are coming to singapore to stay in there, you'll have no regrets man...

ok so here is a preview of the pictures we took yesterday. haven't got time to do up the rest.but will do it when i'm free.

too busy with sch now. can't wait for the next public hols and we can go phototaking around singapore again.. erm, next place should be Holland Village.. anyone interested can join us. take care pal..

i'm really excitied to go back to SAV to wait SAJC band Concert.. looking forward to friday..